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Tuesday, October 31, 2006

im back again pple to blog.
woke up at 10.30am
i ddnt go to school todae, i asked justin help me hand in my form.
thanks justin(:
for comin all the way to my house to take the form n help me hand in.
ddnt feel well.
havin fever, sore throat, bad headache etc.
haixx. maybe i deserved it.
i changed my skin as you can see.
nice? i went to the web to search that pic.
like duh?
changed music too.
yea, helps me relax i guess.
*cough cough*
*sniff*, arh, still not very well.
feeling like i had been running the entire singapore for daes.
"and i think i shall stop lying to myself."
it's okie if you peeps dun get it(:
i reallie wan the matser stroke! i wan i wan i wan.
yeap.
inspirations are always there for you to realise them.
i think i shall go back to sleep. im reallie tired.
jus pray hard i dun get too ill till i end up in the hospital.
jus if i did, i do not want any visitors.
:D

Scribbled @ 12:19 PM

Monday, October 30, 2006

happy holidaes pple!
yea, it's gna be maybe a long, or short holidae.
feeling somewad stressed.
im not reallie sure why.
jus worried about my dear... ...
okie. todae had meeting.
OC meeting yea.
okie, arrived in school at 8.35am exactly.
got the NPCC civil defence course form,
den i hand in my sub comb.
and my subjects are soo different from soo many pple.
wa..
den i went to collect report book.
inbetween till 10 plus,
slackin session yea.
melvin, run here n there.
and i tagged along with wenqi.
nina too.
mark ong? nah, he go with melvin lee.
-------------meeting till 1.30pm-------------
okie, den i went to madii's house to complete the full draft of our cheer list booklet.
half way i went to buy ice cream.
den it rained! wahh!
madii helped me take my bag, den we... RAN!!
erm, not exactlly, jog? err.. ok, im not very sure.
madeline's a nice person. reallieee!
so mature too, though i always see her as the cute childish type.
hmmm, guessed i was wrong. haha. (:
okie. do n do till we had lunch.
(i wuldnt have eaten if madii had nt ask her maid to cook for me)
she's reallie nice! n her room is like worhx. so big.
okie, cus i ddnt go to her house for like... 1 year plus plus le.
yea yea.
haha. okie, did work till 6.30pm? when my ma called n asked me to go home.
cus kinda late to her.
so i jus went home. (=
madii holding our cheer list booklet!
see? she took herself. after our work. so we were slackin.

heyy madeline. cute cute one. xD

to my dear dear,

im worried about you, being worked up easily n being so fustrated most of the time.

i tried, i wanted, i helped. i duno wad to do anymore. comfort n care n love, all i've given.... wad do you wan me to do??

Scribbled @ 9:12 PM

Friday, October 27, 2006

hmmm, i want to linger
hmmm, a little longer
hmmm, a little longer here with you
hmmm, it's such a perfect night
hmmm, it doesnt seem quite right
hmmm, that this should be my last with you... ... ...
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SECONDARY 2 PEIRCE SEC ADVENTURE CAMP 2006 ROCKS!
yea yea. back from the camp pple!
memories that are imprinted on our hearts that can never be removed
we were once many different pple
but OUR differences made us bond
together we formed one team!
we formed.... 15cents!
da one crazy lame DOG BARKING GROUP!
this 3 days 2 nights camp's an unforgettable n irriplacable memory.
if only the camp could last longer.
jus a little longer.
as we shared our memories together,
fun, enjoyment, teamspirit, teamwork, determination n courage.
being crazy is not a bad thing after all isnt it?
see me? wearin ellis's cap acting cool. ahah!
this is where we slept. with all our bags.
yea. okieokie. words cant let you feel the bond we, my group shared.
it's more than jus words.
it's like, all the emotions filling your heart.
and the heart will break if those emotions are gone.
cus it's not the same anymore. how can it be?
it's like jus simply magical, this entire camp.
it's seriously more than jus words alone.
the tears we shed, keep comin back to us.
why? cus the sky is so high n the pigs cant fly?
not anymore. the tears are like,
when there's a book, but no words imprinted on it.
because it would b nothing without words.
jus like us,
we are nothing without each other.
we've achived...alot.
soon,
we returned back to school
results... ahhhhh!
i was soo darn nervous.
and guessed wad, my L1R5 is 20!
jus nice! thank LORD!

pooh bear.

tired pple.

okie. i reallie cant explain the feelings that are goin through me now.

how i wished, time could return back. it's like, so short.

i wan to stay in camp longer.

the moment i arrived school, i thought, "didnt i jus board this bus?"

sigh, OH IT WAS SAD. and it's REALLY SAD!

i'll miss ellis and friends. THANK YOU FOR THE WONDERFUL MEMORIES!

Scribbled @ 5:19 PM

Saturday, October 21, 2006

okie. im soo free to blog everydae now. hahas.
exams over so what can you expect.
okie. n i us realised the royalties blog's music is kinda similiar to mine.
heyys. i dun mean anything. is jus a surprise. no offence okie? (:
hahas. i still 'somehow' admire the royalties. jus a feeling.
hmm. okie. back to my dae.
once i woke up, i cant help but turn on the com.
and can anyone please tell me to STOP playin com games?
im being reallie lame n addicted. need to get my head out of the game.
yea.
well, depends.
and all of a sudden i like tears..
cus there's emotional feelings in it.
jus like me(:
okie, i started reading more these daes.
i ddnt reallie understand the first book i read abt lawyers.
so jumped to the next book.
it's called "Four Letters Of Love"
it's about relationships with pple and life.
talks about God at times too.
i guessed, the thing that made me wan to read this book is that,
one of the interesting characters is a painter.
and you guys shuld noe how much i loved/love art.
oh yah, and during these 2 months,
im goin back to painting and sketching.
well, it helps in my imagination and inspiration helps me in my life too.
inspirations to make life better.
for everyone(:
yeap.
i had stopped and nearly dropped my art this entire year.
i cant reallie rmb how i once felt while i painted till this few months.
it has been reallie long yea. lost the touch n feeling of the peacefullness of fine art.
until now that is, this month i've painted one n drawn many pictures.
i reallie missed that feeling.
and when i grow up,
i dun intend to take any stressful job,
unless needed.
having art as an career, makes my life more beautiful and fulfiling.
(jus to sae, if i ever broke up with my dear, i intend to stay single for life)
yea.
life will be full of peace.
i do not need big money or to be famous.
life is for one to stay happy n experience other things in life,
that God made.
yea(:
went to j8 for dinner.
soon, i went to popular to get all my ART materials.
im reallie practising.
spent 20 over buck on them.
hmm,
i dun wish to paint nature all the time.
not jus peace.
i wish to paint ART of grace.
and freedom.
gotta study n read more too.
every lil thing in this world is inspiration.
but the perfect inspiration is the one that caught one's attention.
"Ah, This is it! 有意思 有意思!"
haha, that's wad i'll think.
okie. guessed that's all for the dae. see ya(:
"I wan to paint a picture which show a thousand special meanings,
and i want the picture to have a feeling of peace n grace in it.
of course i need the Lord to help me.
to help me paint, the perfect picture."
"Luminously written magical...an exaltation of love itself"
emotionalselfofmyown

Scribbled @ 9:18 PM

Friday, October 20, 2006

okieokie. im like, back again..
last nite ddnt sleep well,
it's like i wake up in the middle of the nite for 2hours n i slept for 15mins or so?
todae im so tired.
oh yah.
i cried again. nearly everydae in fact.
i jus wna scream something.
i dun like i dun like i dun like!! how many times mus i sae?
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it seems i cant "talk" abt serious matters with him.
cus of me. my knowledge not good enough.
if not. all we do is laugh smile n b childish.
will result in upside down turn outs.
that's why he suggest me readin more newspapers n books.
n asked me to b more serious.
anyway, heyys. im an emotional person. i use mostly my heart n not my head.
that's y im dumb okie ppl?
anyway, im very very serious in doin all i can to help my dear.
so i'll read more n work more. yea. now readin a book abt somethin abt laws or lawers.
i culd get the rough idea.
anyway, it's hard for one to change once my personal character is in my blood n skin.
so.. haixx.. pressure. but ah well.
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den in the afternoon went out with him to causeway point.
den went to watch a movie.
yea. nothin much. everythin was pretty normal.
"BUT I HATE TO CRY!!"
and im now super hungry as i havent eaten the entire dae.
err, a lil bit.only.
den, i still hope to get into pure science! i wan!
haha. okok. i duno wad to sae le. byebye

Scribbled @ 8:45 PM

Thursday, October 19, 2006

You took my hand
You showed me how
You promised me you'd be around
ah huh that's right
I took your words
And I believed
In everything you said to me
yeah huh that's right
If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Coz they're all wrongI know better
Coz you said forever
And ever
Who knew
Remember when we were such fools
And so convinced and just too cool
oh no no no
I wish I could touch you again
I wish I could still call you a friend
I'd give anything
When someone said count your blessings now'
Fore they're long gone
I guess I just didn't know how
I was all wrong
But they knew better
Still you said forever
And ever
Who Knew
Yeah yeah
I'll keep you locked in my head
Until we meet again
Until we until we meet again
And I won't forget you my friend
What happened
If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Coz they're all wrong and
That last kiss I'll cherish
Until we meet again
And time makes it harder
I wish I could remember
But I keep you memory
You visit me in my sleep
My darlin' who knew
My darlin' my darlin' who knew
My darlin' I miss you
My darlin' who knew
----------------------------------------------------
who knew by Pink and sang by Nadirah, music played with her grp!
she's so darn cool!
Perice Idol 2006! haha.
okieokie. im goin crazy.
yea yea.
zzz. tired. i think i turn in soon lols.
byebye!

Scribbled @ 7:38 PM



ahh!!! i wan to cry!!
my results are soo bad till my ma is angry!
somemore she nearly ask me to stay at home tomolo,
when im goin out with my dear tomolo! ahhh!
ok. i reallie hated my results! esp SCIENCE N ENGLISH!!
my ma sae im so darn lousy lorr.
*sniff*
okie. these r my darn poor results.
english-60 [B4]
chinese-54 [C6] sulks!
maths-76 [A1!!] yayy!
science-61 [B4] cant take pure!! cry!
geography-52 [C6] darn lousy!
homeecons- [i duno]
dnt-65 [B3] still okie bahhs.
okie! i wna complain!
the home econs teacher dun like me issit?!
calculate till the difference is sooo big!
section B they gave me 29.5 marks only la!
when it's SUPPOSE to be 40.5!!!
around 11 marks difference lei!
walao!
i so angry lorr!!
if they dun get it changed im reallie gna complain!
they fail me leii, when im SUPPOSE TO PASS!
cry cry cry...!
haixx. exams r over.
i shant cry over spilled milk.
gna take..hmm...
-english (duh!)
-chinese
-Emaths
-Amaths
-double pure sciences (if can!!) [bio,chem]
-Arts
-PureGeography
-social studies.
done. more than enough.
okie. now i jus wna sae. PEIRCE IDOL 2006 ROCKS!
woohoo~!
firstly, though some of them ddnt sing well,
they were darn brave to sing on stage la!
salute!
hehe. anw, my fav song someone sang,
err, out of tune n wrong pitchin.
but anyway, Good Try! =D
jia youx!
okie. grp catergory rock the stage mann!
though i still support our class, anas's grp.
2e2 nadira's grp totally rule Peirce Idol!
esp when the guitar's string broke.
she still sing on! with jus so much feeling n power dude!
i saw miss hong so proud too.
2e2 was soooooo supportive!
and everything jus rocks!
amazed at their spirts.it's like...wow!
hahas.
okieokie. one more thing!
to gina n my dear ben,
im sorry. i jus cant control my emotions these daes.
so my mood may jus change out of the blue.
im reallie sorry.
to pearlyn as well,
for bearing my freakin attitude these daes.
reallie sorry pple.
esp to my dear too.
i shuldnt have said all that to hurt you.
im sorrie.. reallie...
emotionalselfofmyown

Scribbled @ 5:56 PM

Wednesday, October 18, 2006

sian.
todae markin dae.
stayed home the entire dae. nothin to do.
haixx. okie, first thing, once i woke up. went to plae com.
plae pangya n pangya n more pangya.
sian lorrs.
den my ma sae she teach me how to make dogg-yy out of balloons.
er. still kinda bored but better than starin at the com all dae.
later my eyes turn blood red ah!
then sore eye next dae cant go school liao.
so scared for tomolo's results!
i noe im gna die.
i hope i can get at least....
english-B3
chinese-B4
maths-B3
science-B4
geography-B4
home econs-C6 (cus i anyhow do de)
dnt-C6 (cus never study)
yea. i feel like studyin sec3 stuff now.
cus im like so entire-ly sian.
okok.i go plae more com le.
emotionalselfofmyown

Scribbled @ 4:17 PM

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

"childish-ness destroyed me."
is that true?.. i guessed so.

maybe that's why we are a distance.
i shall stop being childish anymore. and b more
serious. in everything i do.
laughter is not the best medicine after all..

"in the world of reality, once one power is over one. there's still a chance that one will be able to break free into the skies.
in search for one freedom, to take the path which holds one fate.
but at times, once destiny is uncovered and known.
life.. may jus seem the way we want, the way we dream of.
by and through the feelings deep within.

unless, something happened.
like the pathway is broken,
the tables maybe turned around. away from the light.
fallen into a world of imaginations.
question lies, will we wake up?
once a chance appear, dont wait. for it may never come back.
treasure life's golds.
the ones that we hold.
we dont jus dream.
we wake up and work hard for wad we strive for.
one will help others if only the other is puting in effort.
for the differences makes one beautiful,
in one's self being, character.. and attitude."


i need you back dear.
im nothing without you...

I think that you could be, whatever you want to be.
if you realise, all the dreams you have inside.
Don't be afraid
If you've got something to say
Just open up your heart
And let it show you the way...

Scribbled @ 9:49 PM



at last.
the examinations have finished.
another end to one of the things i dislike.
feel a lil down now..
maybe not a lil. maybe very extreemly down..
school.
had the "EQ workshop".
kinda boring. but as my class said.
we are being left out in the whole activity.
the so called "host robbin" is ignorin us no matter how hard we tried to participate.
sad huh.
yea. and yiqi, dun cry le. it takes alot of guts from an adult guy to sae sorrie to us.
i noe he hurt ur feelings. e entire e4 was being left out.
one for all, all for one. that's who we are.
e4, goin through everything togerther. stay untied b as one!(:
bcus i felt he wasnt treatin us fairly n with RESPECT.
on behalf of e4, i went to talk to robbin.
and he added 25 more points for us.
so e1,e3 and esp e2,
that maybe one reason y we e4 turned out champion.
not bcus of me, but he willing-ly gave e4 25points.
i ddnt asked for it. but it's hard to reject. so yah.
ok.after sch i went to untied square to eat.
the taxi driver asked and talked abt alot of things.
like...alot bahhs! i forgot liao! STM!
den ate at pizza hut, my ma treat me n my dear.
den after that, walked arnd, den he went home.
so i went to centerpoint with my ma, bro n maid.
go there walk walk.ddnt buy anything. we're killing time i supposed.
den took 162 home.
n i duno how the bus driver drive de.
i felt so ill on the bus. somemore keep bumbin up n down.
nearly throw out my lunch.
reached home. i slept.
den i got woken up my someone at home watchin ice age2.
the TV was so darn loud. now i feel so tired.
i took my phone. i wanted to ask how my dear was.
den came in a msg. and he wanted to have a SERIOUS talk with me at 8 plus.
and he sounded so scary.
i duno wad to do le. i cant control my feelings very well these daes.
even pearlyn thinks so.
in the mornin once i reached sch, i frm abt 4 meters away threw my bag at the bookshop.
with my handphone inside.
den everone who were practicing for mornin parade got shocked.
cus there was tis loud "BANG" sound.
den when madii talked to me, i replied in a feirce n loud tone.
seriously. im gone case le.
my emotions...
my feelings...
are out of control..
im hurting everyone i see.. i duno wad to do.....
who cares anyway...?
my friends wont ever understand me...
my family, i cant even talk to them or let them understand....
teachers...hate me for who i am...
my dear... ... ... i duno...
i feel we are driftin apart.
somehow... ... ...
and it's all MY fault!
i'll make sure i stay at home tomolo and tourture myself big time.
i deserve it! me n my life sulks!...
"..with a glace of a page, you werent beside me anymore..."


emotionalselfofmyown

Scribbled @ 7:31 PM

Monday, October 16, 2006

never felt so weak in my life before..
being trapped in my emotions as it drains my energy..
till i cant hold on any longer..
todae was the last paper. dnt.
firstly. mornin parade.
everything was a lil chaotic.
and im sorrie.
i ddnt mean it when i said "you culd have gotten a better PC"
it's my fault. i shuldnt have said that.
i was jus tryin to sae that the mornin parade pple
shuld at least train before doin the parade.
i ddnt mean wad i said earlier.
please dun take it to heart.
mr nassim wans the mornin parade pple to do again tomolo.
i wished i culd tell him "go fly kite lah!"
sigh. ah well. jus work harder okie pple?
i noe you guys can do it de!
JIA YOUX!(:
after dnt still stayed back for the TIMMES maths n science exam.
so darn bumb la! it's so easy...
and everything was jus a waste of time. shheessh.
after that i waited for my dear.
den we went to eat lunch.
den go home lorrs.
okie. till next time.
i beg for forgiveness.i noe i was wrong.
everything,my emotions n my feelings caused us to be in tis state.
"but i duno, cus im not givin u the happiness..but the sorrow n the tears.."
"im sorry... ..."
emotionalselfofmyown

Scribbled @ 4:40 PM



Crawling Back To You
-by backstreet boys
Everybody Knows
That I was such a fool
To ever let go of you
And baby I was wrong
And yeah I know I said
We'd be better off alone
It was time that we moved on
I know I broke your heart
I didn't mean to break your heart
But baby here I am
Bangin' on your front door
My pride spilled on the floor
My hands and knees are bruised
And I'm crawlin' back to you
Beggin' for a second chance
Are you gonna let me in?
I was runnin' from the truth
And now I'm crawlin' back to you
I know you're in there
And you can make me wait
But I'm not gonna wait
It's the least that I could do
Just to tell you face to face
I was lyin' to myself
Now I'm dyin' in this hell
I know you're mad
Well I can't blame you for bein' mad
But baby here I am
Bangin' on your front door
My pride spilled on the floor
My hands and knees are bruised
And I'm crawlin' back to you
Beggin' for a second chance
Are you gonna let me in?
I was runnin' from the truth
And now I'm crawlin' back to you
If you could see these tears I'm cryin'
Touch these hands that can't stop shakin'
Hear my heart that's barely beatin'
You would see a different man
But baby here I am
Bangin' on your front door
My pride spilled on the floor
My hands and knees are bruised
And I'm crawlin' back to you
Beggin' for a second chance
Are you gonna let me in?
I was runnin' from the truth
Now I'm crawlin' back to you
Bangin' on your front door
My pride spilled on the floor
I was runnin' from the truth
Now I'm crawlin' back to you
Oh yeah
Crawlin' back to you

Scribbled @ 4:26 PM

Sunday, October 15, 2006

i reallie cant help but feel so broken-up.
the feeling of loneliness.
i reallie hate it! but YOU will never noe how i feel.
you are not me. dun try to understand, cus YOU cant!
wipe that grin off! im not jokin!
i wished i culd jus b hidden away from everything n everyone!
the eunice u see now is jus all a stupid pretend!
she jus fakes a smile a laugh in her everydae life!
im useless! my mind is reallie killin me.
i duno wad to think anymore.
who are you? do you even care?
argh.

im sorrie pple.
i jus have to throw out my feelings...
if not im reallie goin gone-case.
maybe freak out until i fall to my grave?
tomolo last paper le. and im soo...sigh.

"projected at a scene where the person uncovers one's own identity."
"where the truth turns one's destiny away from the light."
"and maybe fallen into the unknows.."

emotionalselfofmyown

Scribbled @ 8:43 PM



okieokie! i cant stop sayin tis...
the ROYALTIES BLOG is soooo darn AMAZING!
im serious! i loovee n admire them so much! haha!
they totally rawk! and da story?
write in exams, get A1 arh! confirm de.
or show it to mr phua!
i bet he cant believe pple frm 2e4 wrote it!
okieokie. i shall stop my craziness! im turnin back insane.
let me see. now im so sian. stay at home plae com all dae.
and quek ah..
dun angry liao la.
i never gave torng torng all my items.
she told me give some to u.
so next time ok?
these few daes i ddnt reallie spend time, or even reallie talk to my dear dear.
nowadaes im feelin so loney.
sigh.
it's like.. after a long while no sms or call. den all i do is stare at my phone.
if not, he wont reply my msg..
his o levels bahhs. i gotta understand.
but i cant help but feel so...'pushed away' somehow.
den somemore tell me when he in jc,
sometimes will end sch arnd 9pm.
den i was like "shocked".
okie.i cant help but think so..
jus so negatively these daes.
it's jus not me.
feel so sad n hurt inside.
emotionalselfofmyown

Scribbled @ 7:55 PM

Saturday, October 14, 2006

jus one more paper before i culd relax FULL TIME!
phew. tired out sia.
stayed at home todae.
reallie bored lorrs.
den my bro wan me n my maid to plae monopoly with him n my ma.
den i was like.. ah well.. jus to kill time.
den i plae n plae. den i was leadin.
my ma scold me not to bully old pple.
i was like 'dun care'.
soon, my money kena all by her taken away le!
ahh! she took abt 11k lorr!
i bankrupt! den my maid ask me call my ma for donation..
"1900 112.. ... .."
den i was like lame...... -.-ll
ah well. nothin to do le. kk.
bb.


emotionalselfofmyown

Scribbled @ 9:19 PM

Thursday, October 12, 2006

EXAMS STRESS AHHH!!...

haha. okok..
it has been one entire week since i last blog.
exams these daes.. haixxya..
the language papers confirm can pass de.
never felt so confident for my chinese before.
haha! *im a big showoff* SSSHHHH...!

but i think im gna die for my geography n home econs bahhs.
so difficult! geo i oso forgot to draw diagram!! ahh! wasted!
ah well, i should not cry over spilled milk.
wad's done is done.
bleahx. still feel soooo SCARED! esp when results will b out.
suddenly come out all the negative scores!
jokin jokin.
haixx. PLEASE DUN LET ME FAIL!..
hehe.
if i do well. gna take 2 pure sciences. if i can lah..
i still considerin to take art or not..
i feel like droppin all my art skills n focus more on my "more" impt subjects.
duno bahhs.

ok. if i score n make my ma happy,
1) gna get new handphone
2) new laptop (maybe)
3) goin to church
4) able to spend more time out (with dear dear)
5) 24hours playin com AHH! (hehe)
6) gna shop like one mad crazy girl!
7) relax like crazy..

heyys.. i deserve "high quality" relaxation.
okok. i think thats all bahhs. till next time.(:


emotionalselfofmyown

Scribbled @ 6:17 PM

Thursday, October 05, 2006

im all aLoNe.
todae was pretty chaotic.
esp mornin parade and after school.
morning parade?
pratically everyone dun reallie noe anythin.
PC bu xiao xin sae wrong command.
and it's alrdy bad enough for her.
the others still dare to laugh.
if you guys CAN DO A BETTER JOB without practicing,
go ahead!
she's feelin alrdy reallie bad inside.
and esp in front of the whole sch.
it's not her fault. everyone makes mistakes.
im jus fustrated at the pple who laugh. she deserves some respect okie.
APC, she did a good job. though she did not noe the commands,
she still tried. she was nevrous.
but i'll clap for her. the still took the post of APC when she did not noe anythin.
good try.
FBs did not reallie do well. but they tried.
it was a learnin point for them.
in fact, i'll saulte them. they are strong.
unlike me. who's weak and useless.
they learn from thier failures. and they'll be better.
jia youx!
lessons.
not much to talk abt.
jus normal and boring as usual.
i thought things wuld be okie.
unbreakable.
but,
i cant.
though my mouth said those words.
but my heart, i cant bring myself to walk away.
in the end, i still did.
all alone. you dissapeared from my sight. i walked home.
yes, it's my fault. it was wrong of me to treat you so cold.
it was my fault that im like this.
i shuld have tried to understand you.
but after so many times,
i was hurt. like there was no end to my pain.
i cant bring myself to.
but again, i still did.
lost. confuse. where am i actually heading..?
i walked four bus stops.
under the burning sun. i struggled.
i stood there. near the fence.
asked you to do me a favour.
by standin at your balcony.
and you did.
i saw you. finally, i realise, it was time for me to leave.
standing near the fence, i looked up to see you once last time.
den i crossed the road filled with cars. and returned home.
nothin stopped me. i fell. i cried. i've given up on myself.
life is nothin without you.
later,
i saw my korr.
he called out to me.
he waved. i waved back.
he look, seems sad.
well, me too. sigh. life's hard. but im unable to stand.
and bring myself to forgive,myself.
i hated myself.
for if i had one wish to do something. it's to leave, in peace. without a worry.
pple dun reallie care anyway..
who wuld notice a useless worthless piece of rubbish along the road?
no one.
in fact, i bet some wuld bully it. sigh.
where are you when i reallie needed you so badly?...
emotionalselfofmyown

Scribbled @ 3:17 PM

Wednesday, October 04, 2006

another boring dae.
what a wonderful thing. haha.
okie....lame.
examinations alrdy started.
and i reallie gotta start workin hard.
my CA marks are reallie bad. failed many of them.
and somehow, i think my chinese is gettin better n better yea.
hehe.
and todae, hmm, pratically there's no lessons.
english..kena nagged.pe? nth.
m&m,chinese..all nothin.
music? oso nothin.
not sure wad to blog these daes.

...oh YAH!
i wna complian!
todae as i was sayin the mistakes halfway for the mornin parade,
mr nasim all of a sudden appear and sae we very noisy.
den we went infront of the bookshop to sit down n listen to wad the speaker gotta sae.
den mr nasim out of the blue, for NO freakin REASON,
ask all of us, mornin parade pple and UG com pple to sit infront of the flag pole.
for wad?
and it's like we are doing a service for the school and this is wad/how they treat us?
it's so UNFAIR!
it's as if we did something wrong and got punished.
but we did not lorr..

the TWO things i learnt frm mrsPOH.
1)it doesnt matter if i like one's face or not BUT,
because one has greater power.so i have to sit there,do nothin and be obidient.
(like a slave...sshheeesshh....)
2)SHUDD-UPP! (hehehe......)
emotionalselfofmyown

Scribbled @ 5:40 PM



All I Have To Give
by Backstreet Boys

I don't know what he does to make you cry,
but I'll be there to make you smile.
I don't have a fancy car,
to get to you I'd walk a thousand miles.
I don't care if he buy you nice things
Does his gifts come from the heart? - I don't know...
But if you were my girl...
I'd make it so we'd never be apart.


But my love is all I have to give
Without you I don't think I can live
I wish I could give the world to you... but
Love is all I have to give.

When you talk - does it seem like he's not
even listening to a word you say?
That's okay babe, just tell me your problems
I'll try my best to kiss them all away...
Does he leave when you need him the most?
Does his friends get all your time?
Baby please... I'm on my knees
praying for the day that you'll be mine!!

But my love is all I have to give
Without you I don't think I can live
I wish I could give the world to you...
but
Love is all I have to give.

To you...Hey Girl,I don't want you to cry no more - inside
All the money in the world could never add up to all the love
that I have inside ... I Love You baby

And I will give it to you
All I can give,all I can give
Everything I have is for you
But love is all I have to give

But my love is all I have to give
Without you I don't think I can live
I wish I could give the world to you ... but
Love is all I have to give...to you.

Scribbled @ 5:38 PM

Tuesday, October 03, 2006

heyys. new blog yea.
relink me pple! hehe.

todae. school was SO boring lorrs.
so many things happened. but overrall rating: BORING and SIAN.
hehee.
den later on i went to my dear hse. stayed there for lunch.
after that he came to my place. we had "cookin egg competition.
lame rite? haha.
den in the end. both about the same bahhs.
hmm. later on i send him to the bus stop lorrs.
but we went to the market first. buy FOOD!
i noe im a pig! =D
ah well. another lame borin dae. i so long never update.
so the idea of makin a new blog came to my mind.
lols.
haha. okok. that's all.
emotionalselfofmyown

Scribbled @ 5:58 PM