Friday, April 27, 2007
 it has been an insane week.more than just going out of my mind; it was nuts.i broke down; throughout the days. i couldnt hold back this time. morning parades were even worst by the day. my comm, i cant tolerate it to see them being bullied, when they are putting their effort, when they are serving the school. no, i'm just committed to my UGcomm, i cant just stand aside and look at them suffer. actions had to be taken. (note:ANYONE DARE LAY A HAND ON MY COMM AND YOU'LL GET IT FROM ME.)i've stepped down, yet i cant let go. no, i'm still an exco, i'm still part of student council. if i cant do anything, the least i could do is still care. melvin; i'm really sorry,
these days, times are tough, the words i said, i ddnt mean them, i dont blame you, seriously. i was nuts, i went out of control,
because i felt like an outcast, i felt that i had vanished when you asked me. sorry, i know, you're a great president, i know you care; i'm jus going through too much for me to handle. i really apologise about wad i said. dont take it too heart. studies, i cant cope. i know i cant. my commitment are unstable, so is my work. including my studies. all i have are falling apart. still, i want to give up, i wanted so badly to jus forget contiuning this whole life. to jus give in, to jus end these nonesense. but i know,He is still there. guiding me; helping me to stand. how could i ever live without you?(: there're my lovely sweetest group of friends too! :D the ones who were always there for me, to hear me out, to care, to understand and to help me through. it's so nice(: the sweetest peeps! ♥prissy! ♥sri! ♥valentina! ♥haokiet! ♥many many more!(:I MISS ZIYI!
sigh, tomolo still got school. exams started! todae was chinese! you know wad mike said? "i wont jus fail but i'll get a negative one hundred marks!!" well, i duno bahhs. i'm really turning insane till i'm metally nuts; for real. i cant seem to control myself these days. ah well. see how bahhs! ♥piano&art. & to prissy!i'll learn the final fantasy paino piece; so u wont get too much headache!(: asap! ciaos!  charis n me!  gal power!(x   anas! and the poor tigger i bullied!  could u tell it's me? it's ME!    tuition!  mike! Scribbled @ 8:34 PM
Tuesday, April 17, 2007
 In a moonlit night,
when the world is round,
my spirit is over this valley and you;
my heart reaches out,
to somewhere we are;
to a place that is calling me, in a song.
Breaking the chains that trapped my soul,
I raced with the wind, to reach my goal.
It is then that i see that, there's a power in me;
the lights of the skies that declare...
i am free.
The joy of this moment,
the wonders i see,
the passage which leads to my destiny.
my heart reaches out,
to somewhere we are;
to a place that is calling me, in a song...
" ahh! my legs hurts BAD! real BAD! " i screamed my lungs out! march march march. i just got home 20mins ago. today's training isnt tiring? DREAM ON! it has worn me out! though my legs are aching like a patient in the hospital; i still feel so high. thank GOD! 16th APRIL 2007
NAPFA 2.4KM! woke up that morning with leg cramp n tummy cramp. had a bad headache. i was on medication. BUT i still went for 2.4km run. and it was the worst year ever! before and during the run; really prayed i could be well, and that God would give me strength to run. still; i felt weak. and in the end, i gave in; i stopped; and walked. i knew the moment i walk i would fail. because if i contiuned to run after i've stopped. (the accident that happened last year which ended me in the hospital)has caused me several bad headaches at times. and i wished i could fall and faint. my entire vision turned blue; it was like a spoiled TV screen. still; i was reminded God is my provider; the source of strength. i prayed. soon after; mr wong came and pass me on his roller blades. "eunicee! look at the time! don't walk! one and a half min more till u fail!
it's less than 250metres away! run!"
he motivated me. i trusted God. i sprinted all the way till the end. and i passed by 1plus mins. my timing was 16.50min i think. it was way worst compared to last year which was 13mins plus. thanks God i passed and i DONT HAVE TO RUN AGAIN! yayy!(= 17thAPRIL2007 which is today! ahh. as i said. march march march. needed to fall in at 2.30pm. lessons end at 2.15pm. WHERE IN THE WORLD IS THERE TIME TO EAT LUNCH?! hahas! we had party behind!  chips!  lessons! party-ing behind!  bubble tea!  lights! camera! action! now at home! i shall play piano later! ciaos! AND THERE'S TRAINING TMR AGAIN! noooooo....! Scribbled @ 8:00 PM
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
 i havent blogged for 1 week n 1 day. nice. let me share what i've been thinking and been doing these days. what can i say about school? it's pretty normal as usual. but when you compare it; upper sec and lower sec. you'll really wish you treasured and had a longer past. frankly; i miss 2e4. even though at times, werent right; even though misunderstandings and conflicts happened before, you'd wish you were back in the good old days. life back then in sec 2e4 was fun. jus one word: fun. because the memories that were craved on our hearts; cant seem to let go at all. life was enjoyable then; i could play as much as i wanted; i ddnt need to hand in homework on time. i ddnt need to study for tests. but that was all in the past; for life was easy a year ago which passed so fast. now; come to think of it; i wished i had treasured the times back then more. as the days pass and the lessons go. there's more to learn; more to encounter. there's not a time to waste; or even a time to rest. for every single space in the clock was filled. so when time passed, we don't even know it exsisted. how complicated life could get? how much more can i stand this? learn to live and live to learn.
i have this thinking in the past; that i shouldnt study. for all i want is to get through life with art.art doesnt need chemistry or biology; it doesnt need amaths or emaths. it doesnt need socialstudies or languages. art was all in the mind and all in the brush. i never wanted to study; or even live life this way. what i want to be? all i ask for is a free and easy life. i jus want to paint and draw throughout my life. riches and fame is not my type. love and faith is all i need. why am i saying all these? maybe i'm jus stressful. maybe i'm jus sick and tired of this life. when you jus listen to class; you always wanted to be somewhere elseinstead of sitting there listening. but i realised one thing; that the teachers feel the same way. sometimes they wish they were somewhere else too; rather than teaching. maybe it's a process. maybe. tomolo there's emaths test.
today u had socialstudies test.
the day before i had chemistry test.
thursday i have napfa test. i really don't like this at all. BUT i'm gonna love it. live to learn n learn to live. i gotta learn to love too! in every way and any way. lots n lotsa love in the air! i wanna be changed, no matter what i face. i wanna be moulded, be the person HE wants me to be! iminlove~iminlove~iminlove~iminlove~iminlove~!
love~love~meeting jaclyn tomolo for lunch. i'm gonna put more focus on studies and Christ. others can come later; KEKEX! =DD and one more thing; i love my UGcomm!(x uploaded pics? npcc peeps! 15cents! sec2'2006 camp!
 Campcraft girls' team 2006
 15cents girls!
 art; sketching;
 npcc games day 2005.. <33
 i'm still reconised as rabbit. sigh...(:/)
 primary school friends. 2004.
 campcraft unit comm times. i miss those times.
ciaos~
Scribbled @ 10:51 PM
Monday, April 02, 2007
 pictures uploading in progress. hahas, tomolo's student council investiture. we are totally unprepared; the practice todae was in a mess. and there were jus too many things. all at THE SAME TIME!
i nearly falled back into sorrowness again. but God reminded me not to give up. yea! hahas; i cried during the investiture practice. it was out of laughter! HA. hmmm, plans i have for this month -study hard!
-taking braces off OFFICALLY! yayy!
-study study study...
-wheeee, nth much actually. kekex.
kept thinking alot these days; my friends, my family; my cell grp. it's a blessing. but what distracts me would either be; work; work n maybe cca or commitments. haixx, how did i end myself in this mess anyways? yea; presentations on WED!
better send me heyy! presenters!tomolo leaving class at 11.15am! woot! going to prepare n practice for investiture. n yayyness! there's art tomolo! ahh! this post is jus crapp. and in case i dont come online or anything. i wnna wish my dear discipler!.... HAPPY BIRTHDAY! (in advance) =D         pictures n more. lots of LOVE! iminloveiminloveiminlove!
love~love~love~!
ciaos~
(peeps! keep the tags in!) (x Scribbled @ 11:09 PM
Sunday, April 01, 2007
 back to blog peeps. i nearly gave up on this blogg. cos' i kept throwing my emotions on another blog. sshh. it's a secret. yesterdae was awesome. say AWESOME! for the whole of last week; i ddnt seek God much, i nearly gave up on every single thing. ddnt even do QT with a whole heart. oh mann; eunicee... how could you?..
practically i was fustrated; felt i was immured by merciles melancholy. stress incarcerated me. i could have been completely destroyed; suffering in the depts of sorrowness. in silence; forgotten; lost; in a corner. masochistic. i jus ddnt share;
i kept the whole lie to myself.
no one knew; cos' wad u peeps see in person;
is jus a mask that covers my identity.
to b frank, i'm not the happy person u always see.
church yesterdae was really impactful; esp during praise n worship; it was nervous for me leading the first time. i jus thought i let God so down this week; that i ddnt know wad to do. i ddnt prepare wad to share for the verse. i ddnt rmb the songs properly. "oh no".
but still; God spoke to me during the praise n worship while leading; i turned off my mind and focus all on Him alone. till it was the last song... i got distracted, joel wanted me to lead one part of "the stand" cos' he dun have the lyrics. my mind went blank; i was lost; shocked. God really spoke to me how impt is it to seek Him, to focus on Him; that he could make things possible for everything. i nearly fell to tears; but i was jus too happy; cos' God helped me; guided me to pull this through. faith; it's so impt. faith begins where man's power ends, faith; not in words, but in life. i love you Lord! i'm running after you!
i kept thanking God. went home with jack-jack(= we chat on the bus like crazy. hahas, he mixed arnd with my dad too! Haokiet is a really nice buddy; he's always there to help; hear you out. thanks bro!(= reached home... AHHHHhhhh!!!!!!!! oh my gosh oh my gosh oh my gosh!
THANK YOU GOD!
my mama bought me a piano! ahh! she has always object me to learning musical instuments; cos' she thinks it's taking up my time. i've been asking her to buy me a piano ever since 10 years old! now i got it! oh mann! THANKS MUM! THANK YOU LORD! i will never slack again! loves! todae, kept practicing on my piano. did tons of studying. well; alot to me. 4 hrs a dae! it's alot! not including homework! and now i'm on the com because i'm preparing something for a special friend, cos' she helped me ever since i came to cosbt. guided me; listened to me; callled n sms me; love me; care for me. i jus love her lots! so i'm preparing something for her. i hope it would b special, it's the heart that counts!(= need the com; need to buy; need to print; (u know who u are; guess bahhs! kekex!) i love u all! i promise i wont let go ever again. i will keep holding on, i'll make it through. yea. i wanna thank some peeps!
-lenny (for taggin n encouraging me all the way) =D
-mark (for helping me n encouraging me too!)
-haokiet (for always being there when i need a listening ear)((=
-sri& prissy (for guiding me in my studies)
-stacey (for listening to me when i was upset once)
-jaclyn&ZIYI! (for smsing n calling me to help n encourage me)(x
-joel&ZIYI! (for guiding me throughout the praise n worship)mixing arnd more. i know more abt my friends. esp haokiet; he really can entertain pple! xDD well that's all peeps. ciaos!Scribbled @ 8:35 PM
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charis n me!
gal power!(x
anas! and the poor tigger i bullied!
could u tell it's me? it's ME!
tuition!
mike!
