heyys!
church ystdae was fun! hehe(:
in fact, it's always fun!
okie, hmm, got one newcomer!
woot! yayy.
hahas, sadly melvin ddnt come.
but... i've faith he'll come.
next week?
yea, will contiune to bring newcomers too!

okie, service was about " it's a new year! is it goin to be a new you?"
was 2007 goin to be a year of victory or defeat?
Thomas Edison said, " i have not failed. I've jus found 10,000 ways that wont work."
it simply means he ddnt fail but actually succeeded after 10,000 tries.
our attitude makes all the difference!
some of us simply would have let go and give up at the 9,999 try if we were Thomas Edison.
and we were jus ONE try away to succeeding.
it's simply a waste. some and most people jus give up halfway.
in fact, i do too.
cus we will think, "10,00 tries?! are you nuts?! waste my time!"
all these things etc.
but beforewe could move on, firstly we ought and must!

1) FORGET OUR PAST!
we must forget wad lies behind and strive for wad lies ahead.
no matter what we've done, no matter how wrong we've done,
God has forgiven us, me must not dwell in the past, but move forward.
"OUR GreaTesT GloRy is noT in NevER FaiLing, BUT in RISING EVERYTIME WE FALL!"
heyys, if this sentence is not true, we can see people being millionares and there wont be A MISTAKE in the world...... WHICH IS NOT TRUE!

everyone makes mistakes, even in examinations, we dont get 100% marks all the time do we?
is it because we scored 99 out of 100 marks den we sae,
"im NOT goin to take anymore exams or study anymore!"
jus cus we did ONE mistake?
are you that kind of person?
or in another situation,
you love failing, in the sense you learn evertime you fall.
cus failing is your friend, cus it allowed YOU to learn something new everytime you fall.

no matter what, failling wont stop us, and we will not stop no matter how much we fall.
cus most of us let go when we're simply 1 step nearer to victory.
the worst thing is not about failling, the worst thing is not making a mistake!
BUT missing the OPPORTUNITY GOD put before us!
missing the opporunity to learn and b one step closer to succeeding.
however, we mus not allow failures to impact us.
we mus learn from failures, not jus letting the failures go.

and we need to make adjustments from failures.
we may always go off track, we may always be drifted away from our destination,
but we MUST come back!
we MUST NOT let ourselves drift away and contiune to drift away.

remember!
there is NO WRONG! only a lesson to learn ea time we fall.
failure can change us, change us to go to a better place.
do not dwell on it, love it as your friend.
we can expect ourselves to fail 80% of our life.
but if we dont make the change, we can never learn.

2)FOCUSING ON OUR PRIORITIES!
we mus always put the onesof higher priority in first.
if not we an never get it in.
for example, an empty jug.
we have big rocks, small rocks, sand and water.
if we do not put the big rocks in first, we can never ever put them in.
if we put the water in, how can we put the big rocks in?
the water would have overflowed.
it's the same in life,
we ought and must put God first, in top priority!
nothing can replace that place He hold.
of we dont let Him get involved in our lives, it'll be wasted

3)FUNCTIONING IN THE PRESENT!
there's no such thing as "somedae"
because no matter how many times i search the calendar,
there's mondae, tuesdae, wed, thurs fri, sat sun....
BUT NO SOMEDAE!
people always sae, "i'll be a millionar!...somedae!"
and wanna know something?
"somedae" never comes!
it's either do it! ...or not!
we must live our lives to the fullest, living like everydae is our last.
so if we did not grab that opportunity, we'll regret it.
working and living as if it was your last.
never put off until tomolo what you can do todae!
it's not about next time, IT'S NOW!
obey God's commands, resultin in God's way of result.

...the question is, what will you do todae?

hahas, that's the service, yeap!
super cool n awesome heyy?
next we went back for discipleship.
yea, for me, it was a sit in session.
so yea, listen listen.
den after we're done.
we got carried away by Gideon playing with the stuff toy horse!
he took the horse and threw it till it's head bang on the wall!
den we kept laughing n laughing tilll.... ... ...
caught kenni's attention..
oh mann..
hahas, ah well, =X
yea, den prasie and worship den DINNER!
woot! okie.
den i disturb pohying!
not really, hahas, later met my dad and went home.

todae im goin out! yea! and im not goin for countdown.
hahas, why would i?
im not that sort, erm. hahas. i'll stay at home at night on my laptop.
heyys! i should cut down my "laptop time" mustnt i?

ah well, shall blog next time!
SECONDARY ONE ORIENTATION 2007 WILL ROCK THE BEAT ON 3RD JAN!
woot!
amk, here we come!
peirce sec~ yea baby!

ciaos~

AWESOME! is the word to sae.
heyys, i think the orientation, though abit messy,
was pretty okie? dont you agree?
run in, sort of messed up but all turned out well.
xD
at last! i can have a good rest without worries....
...or maybe there're some still bugging me.
ah well, not goin to care much.
=D
cus wad they sae doesnt affect me,
it's wad i do, affect me(:
take look at the run in video!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A-aL3aij5Ws

that's the web heyy?
yea, go view it yourself xD

sec1s? hmm, not bad for the 1st dae.
but there're still some quiet ppl.
OCs, GLs and excos! JIA YOUX!
we can do it! woot!

gna lose my voice, ahh! hehe.
GLs r super enthu den usual, out of the blue!
woohoo, good good, but still rmb
dun over enthu till u forget your task! that's the more impt one!
=D

wahh~~~
wad is the banner in the sky called?
PEIRCEANS!
who are the champions in the field court?
PEIRCEANS!
who dares to mess with us will be dead meat!
who dares to mess with us will be dead meat!
na nana na nana~ na nana na nana~ na nana na nana~ na!
one more time!
na nana na nana~ na nana na nana~ na nana na nana~ na!
PEIRCE!

woot! 2nd dae of secondary ONE orientation!
we, leaders of the future and of Peirce Secondary awaits you!
be prepared, we gna shake the grounds everybody!

agents 2007 is better than 007.

i believe.
and todae, reallie turned out well.
at least it was better than yesterdae! woohoo!
PRAISE THE LORD!
yea, at first everything seems to be getting off the wrong foot.
we started really with all the lectures and boring stuffs.
but soon, everything was high and hyper!
not to the max but it was a good improvment.
well done guys.

though there were still some ups and downs,
most turned out well.
reallie realie hope, and i believe it will turn out well.
yea! jia youx OCs, excos and GLs!
everything's goin to work out fine.

pretty stress still though, in life, many things are sill affecting me.
life is simply complicated, but i choose to stand strong.
in fact, i find it easier to allow myself to stay happy often(:
yea, nice improvement? hehe.
GLs sometimes were unhappy,
scold vulgur languages in front of me,
but i, we took it. and we ddnt give in.
and in fact! we were reallie reallie good to the GLs alrdy.
all the previous OCs would punish the GLs they are slow,
misbehave or anything.
but we ddnt, so that their spirits wont pulled down any further.
i know it'll be a success!

some ppl are disturbing me as well.
some in school, some outside.
really really stress, wondering what am i to do?
i contiuned life normal, but i cant jus leave situations jus like that.
i know the things God has planned for me.
Thank yoU OCs, for being there for me, excos as well.

my dear dear ziyi's ill!
so ziyi, mus sleep more, eat more, slack more, rest more and most imptly,
erms.... duno lei.
hehe =D

tomolo's the big show!
PEIRCE SECONDARY ONE ORIENTATION!
agents 2007 is better than 007!
we'll rock the whole amk! shake the ground ppl!

we're the Leaders of the future! =D
i believe.

ciaos~

everything todae started and all seem prepared.
i really thought it would be all well.
i thought, but it.. really did.. turned out otherwise.

it all started when the OCs gathered in school at 7am,
early in the morning.
things were prepared, logicstics not one less.
everything started well, we all were hyper, happy, enthu, firm...
we prepared, printed, arranged all in 1hour50mins..
until it was showtime.

GLs, too as well sec3s like all the OCs.
all gathered, all prepared, shifted and divided out.
everything went high den low den high den low.
the spirits werent stable.
i nearly couldnt take it. i really couldnt...
sigh, but i believe tomolo training would b better, i know it will.

imagine working full time on both Christmas and Christmas eve!
one word! TIRING!
it's super duper~
anyway, later going out for a movie.

jus finished doing all 10booklet for the GL training.
woot! job... not really well done but ah well.
300 ove pages printed
2 tanks of black ink used up.
150 over paper used.
and im not being paid or anything.
yea, phew~

LI ZIYI jus called me, yea, she's sleepy at this time of the day when she woke up at 1pm.
lazy! jokin jokin =D
hahas, tomolo's the GLs training already.
have to remember stuffs, be ready to train the GLs.
gonna be tough.
yea, and i have to meet benjamin tomolo at 7pm..
sian, returning his books.
it gonna be a tough dae tomolo sia!

OCs LEADERS jia youx worhs!
.... btw, where's my christmas pressie?

if you no GUM GUM! you DUMB DUMB!

hahas. back home from a moive!
dun tell you guys wad movie it is, cus it's SUPER DUPER AWESOME!
yea, heyys, do not see to believe, believe to see.

and i cant believe the mummy had graduated from cambridge university.
heyys, it was an ancient mummy.
who spoke many languages. like english and caveman!
worhs.
hahas, it's super funny and awesome.

Thank God he planned everything nicely today and everyday.
it's the first time my entire family actually enjoyed a movie.
in the past it was one or two who wasnt really satisfied.
yayy!
=D
I jus LOVE the Lord soo much!

hehe.

and oh yeap! yesterdae retro christmas was awesome as well!
keith and haokeit is comin back next week! woohoo!
PRAISE THE LORD!
and i still have to improve.
cant completely overcome my own emotions.
it's like, out of the blue, whenever im in church, i'll b down.
for no reason! i really dun know why.
in the past, emotions always overcome me,
that's why i ddnt controlled it in the past.
ah well, now, i've gotta learn! =D
i wont give in, i wont give up.
i wont turn back, i'll contiune to stand strong and move forward!

finest steels go through hottest fire!
that's wad i believe in! LORD JESUS!
for he never forsake me, for he gave me strength to move on.. .. ..
=D

ciaos~

yesterdae was church and in 6days time....
RETRO CHRISTMAS!~
woooohoooo!

okieokie, church was per normal.
jus that i brought my bro to church.
and was kind of worried about him.
cus he's not the type who like to mix around at all.
yupp, and i'll contiune to bring him to church.

and jus wna sae, thanks ziyi.
really really!
love ya so much!
okie, at first it's like really, out of the blue, i turned so sian.
meaning, i felt so sian.
it's like something's troubling me.
but i wasnt thinking about anything, i wasnt really focus at all.
i got distracted, but i dun know wad.
so yea, she taught me the joy in Christ.
and i ddnt knew it's full and actual meaning till she told me!
thank God! thanks ziyi!

felt so much better(:
yea.
leaving for malaysia on 19th and back on the 21st dec.
hmm, maybe i'll go christmas shopping then
=D

okie, retro christmas!
ahhhh!!!!!!!!!
i really darn hate my shirt!
checkered?
eeewwwwwwww.....
okie, i took green, erps, obvious?
i know rebecca's gna stay one meter away from me!
hahas. she hates green!
ah well.
gna ask as many ppl if i can(:
yea, hopefully they could come to Christ as well
which will be better still!
=D

that's all bahhs. ciaos~

all that's left are jus memories of you that remained deeply rooted in my heart.
it's jus simply so hard to release that hold i have for you.
simply you.. simply.. us..
i went to you blog, realised that you deleted all the entries you wrote abt us.
maybe, i guessed, it was easy for you..
cus you love me no more..

i read your entire blog, well, not exactly.
saw your stuggles and the pain you once felt.
now, maybe you've return to this.. tourture.
finding your true love once again.
you never stopped searching to find a place to b accepted in life.
where someone could talk to you and understand you better.
maybe i wasnt the right person at the right time.
your words and your seriousness, you cant help but completely be yourself.
in fact, you were always.
i agree that of course we have to be ourselves.
but have you ever tried to adapt to the envioment and others.
yes, understandable that you feel weird and not yourself.
but wad about taking this first step.
the first step is always the hardest aint is?
to be loved and accpeted by all the people around you.
was it worth the effort and sacrifice?
in the end, it's your life. you still choose and decide your own path of life.

you will be accepted, you will be loved.
but it's still up to you. because you are the KEY.
not the answers, but the hint and tryout.
it's still up to you, seeing if you're willing or not.
seeing if you want to make the effort of not.
it's jus like a coin on a table.
the coin will remain there forever if you do not stretch out your hand for it.

my bother if people used you as a tool?
why does it affect you so much?
as i was oncwe like that, i finaly realised..
WHY THE NEGATIVE THINKING?
was there even a point to feel or think that way?
will thinking negatively answer your problems?
NO!
feel happy and proud that people needed your help and service.
so what if they throw you aside?
you were the type who always wanted to be felt needed dont you?
i agree. without love, there's no point in life.
but what about God's love?
His love can never be compared to all the people, or anyone out there!
because He who is from above is above all!
you do not need to find someone or anyone out there to love you because GOD IS ALREADY LOVING YOU!
so what if people cast me aside? Jesus still loves me.
so what if im being used as a tool? God still loves me.
so what if im hated and im being an outcast in the world?! the Father still loves me!
i do not care what the world thinks because im not from this world!
as in the bible, humans, we, are aliens of this world.
so what if im hated? ha? like i care?
the Father is in Jesus and Jesus is in me!
im not afraid for He never forsakes me or leave me.
and He loves me at all cost. all the time, anywhere and everywhere!

having a relationship now is not the right time.
the only relationship i want to have is from God and with God!

you always thought you have your facts, about reality and statues anxiety right.
okie, rephrase, most of the time.
and does that that means you're mature jus because you are serious and with your facts right?
wrong.
yes facts are useful at times.
but being mature has to be both in actions and words.
ACTIONS SPEAK LOUDER THAN WORDS.
and it doesn not mean you help others you are very mature.
not totally, the real thing is about how you perform, behave, adapt, love and be humble in life.
i konw, im not any better, for i have a long way to go and learn.
so have you.
but we shall not judge so there shall be peace.
for all of us are still under God's creation.

sigh, i shant say any further, emotions, now i jus portray everywhere.
for in all i do and all i say is all of my heart's emotions.
and i've this feeling...
i havent spoke so... so..seriously in situations like this for a very long time..
in fact, ever since i got together with you, my facts, well, most of it, were forgotten.
ever since i got together with you, i became childish, in fact,
after reflecting, i realised, i've gotten worst.
i need to get back on the right path, for me to both focus and do task properly.
now, i need the Lord to heal this broken heart of mine.
before i can love others with all my heart again.
i've sacrifice too much, i've lost many things which i could have done better in the past.
now, i've learnt, and shall walk on the path of rightoueness,
for only He can make straight my paths.

i need and i want to.. let go of you..
i commited all my love for you. but now..
it has vansish all into thin air.
like it was never even there..
i really want to be like the friends we once where we speak of our minds, and we share all our problems wiht each other, like brothers and sisters, we went throught thick and thin in the past.
there wasnt any feeling we had for each other.
we were jus normal friends, who understood each other all the times.
but this relationship drifted us apart, further away, i lost sight of you..
jus like the day we started our relationship.... ...
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it was the saturday of 2006, 15 april.
we were invited to our friend, Sylvia's church for easter party.
haven been to a church for a long time, my parents were worried, so they followed to see the location of Sylvia's church.
and it was along thomson road, and i ddnt know, it was a shophouse.
so i entered, my parents felt unsafe so they talked to the pastor.
so i sat down, with madeline, and soon after, you came.
and my parents, after talking to the pastor, called me out of the church.
and i knew things werent going well that day.
outside the church, i recieved some nagging, after another.
you were so worried, you even purposly prepared and ironed your clothes properly that day.
and only for that day, to see me..
you walked out of the church, past by me and my ma, with that stern and serious look.
nothing else filled your mind but me being safe.
my ma, she ddnt allowed me to that church, she was so angry with me that i had to go..
i really had to..
so slowly i left, turned to see you hiding behing a car, waving at me.
but i walked further away, and the further i walked, the further i was gone from your sight.
and soon, you could see me no more.
we both broken hearted. left.
though far apart, our hearts were close.
i never felt that way to anyone in my life before.
i couldnt stop messaging you, because all that filled my mind that time was you, only you.
like the world never existed, and i couldnt care any less wad was goin on in the surroundings, but you..
the moment i arrived home, i waited for you on the com, to come online.
we promised each other, we will talk for we both needed each other so much.
that day, i waited for 1 hour, 2hours... though i still knew you were at church, i contiuned to wait.
till finally, i saw you online. and without much delay, you talked to me. and we both shared our sorows that day. in fact, it wasnt the day we got together.. it was the day we first said to each other, i love you..
from that day i commited my love for you, not letting go, through the difficult times and arguements we had.
i perservered, for you i ddnt give up on you, on us.
seriously, we were the only ones i ever knew had so much conflicts with each other.
we had so much agruements. you were upset, for me, i felt so much worst..
i really ddnt know when am i to suit you and to suit my own.
in this relationship, it has driven me nuts.
i was so crazy, i couldnt care about anything but you..
i gave up so much for you. now, it seems like i've lost so much.
but i shant cry over spilled milk.

what has happened has happened.
ley bygones be bygones.
i jus wish... i jus want.. to be the friends we once were..
and to let go the hold i have for you in my heart... ...

you are jus another memory of the past.
but letting go, it's not jus a instant thing.
a minute to like, an hour to love..
but a lifetime to forget.

i really wan to let you go.
i do not want to be distracted anymore.
from the Lord.

but you never loved me at all.
your thinking of love was jus a liking for me..
why did i ended myself in this mess?

love is sacrifice
love is obedience
love is patience.
love is kind
love is NOT envy
love is NOT rude
love is NOT proud
love is NOT selfish
love is NOT easily anger
love is NOT judgement
lastly, LOVE KEEPS NO RECORD!

pride is the spirit of the devil
humdity is the spirit of Christ.

we cannot HURT and LOVE at the SAME TIME!

im not spiritually mature enough to have a relationship with you.
you are not as well.
in actual fact, we both dun know how to love each other properly.
reaulting in conflicts.
it's not because that...
you're more serious n im more joyful
which resulted in alot of conflicts.
WRONG!
if you truly loved me, you would have waited.
love is patience and not easily angered.
love keeps no record!

maybe it was all a learning point.
im not getting myself into anymore relationships.
till im really spiritually mature.

all i wan to focus on now is the Lord.
if i could, i would wish i could turn back time.
not to heal things.
not to change things.
is to be like the friends we once were.
we were happier, more open minded, etc.

I WANT TO LET YOU GO!
but my heart jus cant, cus i commited all my love for you..

ever since we both ended our relatonship,
i thought i could live freely with the Lord.
but now you distract me so much.
flashbacks from the past keep comin back at me.
i wake up ever morning hoping to see your sms once again.
to talk to you on the phone nearly everyday.
but now it's no more.
CANT YOU SEE I LOVE YOU SO MUCH?

maybe it was my fault,
that i love you so much
but i duno how to show it to you,
in both words and actions.

i really need only the Lord.
but i need to forget you..
to earse you from my mind everyday.
to release myself from you..
i dun wan anymore pain.

i contiune to struggle...
hoping that someday i'll forget you.
until we meet again, when im fully spiritually mature.
maybe, and only maybe, the past would return.....

okieokie, back from meeting
i mean lunch.
hahas, went for lunch with nina, melvin, germaine and keith.
at mac.
at first i wan eat kfc de.
but it's okie bahhs.
yea, meeting with mr sim in the morning.
and realised the new vice principal is a female.
erm, mrs chin i think.
yea, wonder how would it be like.
last year new principal, this year new vice p.
yea. hahas.
den we talked n talk, abt meeting, den abt keith yeo....
=X
shoosh! i ddnt sae anythin.
okie, yupp.
i bring my bro to church this week!
=D yayy!
okie, keith maybe comin, but nina bring de.
yea.

oh chucks. it's raining.
okie, my shoulder is still aching frm yesterdae bowling.
but i feel like bowling more often.
hahas, okie, den melvin lee!
threw me AND maddy another task.
so that me and maddy mus do the peer leader booklet.
yea.
more of my ink's gna be wasted.
nth else le bahhs.
ciaos~

it's all over.
but i know, i've made the right choice.

it was best for both of us. but for me to forget you, takes a lifetime. it was only todae, i realised you never loved me at all. but it was the right choice to go our seperate ways. i wanted, no, i needed to grow closer to God. we both are not spritually mature yet. it's not the right time to have a relationship with you. if it's under God's will, we'll b together next time. but now, i wan to focus on God and only Him alone.

confusion, choices, conflicts..
i really dun know wad to do..
i really dun.. ...

wad am i to do?... im already 'half dead'.
the more i think, the more i get tired.
but i have to... make a choice.

okie, ddnt blog or touch the com for 1 entire week.

yeasterdae was church.
sorry people, not as hyper as usual.
went out of the house early in the morning,
to buy munchung's cake.
cus cell was celebratin his bdae.
so nina suggested to buy fruit cake.
and REBECCA, told me to get a cake less than 10bucks.
can anyone of you out there tell me where shall i find a fruit cake less than 10bucks?
okie, as i told the cell im gna donate the cake
(means im not getin any $$ back)
i ddnt really care how much the cake was.
you know why?
heyy, im celebrating it for one of my bro in christ.
i DO NOT care how much it cost!
okie, sorry for the strong words.
no offence.

den had lunch, went to church in a taxi.
i was super duper early.
left the cake in the cafe.
went to basement and found not even a shadow.
decided to look at the playground and there they were.
some of them,
hmm, serene, wanzi, joel, munchung, gideon, and nina.
sigh.
everything went smoothly i suppose.
i shant go into details.
and i kena spritual attack again.

dinner.
out of the blue we found out there wasnt any catering.
so had to go to beauty world to eat.
me and pohying went to macs and back to the coffee shop where the others were.
upon knowing that i ate mac.
kenni pushed my head.
got headache already still push.
cus he sae i so ill still eat mac.
okie, my fault, im sorry, i ddnt mean it that way.

later on he talked to me.
personally.
at first he thought i was angry with him.
cus he pushed my head.
but seriously, im not angry at all.
den, he jumped into me and my dear's relationship.
telling me that the leaders disagreeded with realtionships in the church.
telling me about all the etc etc stuffs.
and he hope i would go home and consider my decision.

i shant say any further.
the result, no one shall know except me.
and the truth will be unfold.
one day, i suppose.
i need help!
i do not want to part from him.
and even more, i do not wan to drifted away,
from the both of them.
both him and Him (the Lord).
kenni told me to decide,
i seriously seriously dun know!
i wanted both. cus i seriously love both...

shall i fight for wad i truly believe in?

or...

shall i sacrifice? one for the other...?

heyys! im back once again pple!
okie, firstly, yesterdae at church i was so crazy!
wait wait!! start frm the time i was goin to church.

i was late! for the first time,
even though i ran n ran.
asked n pray that He'll give me 1min.
to run frm the bus stop to church.
and guessed wad? he really gave me 1min!
once the bus stopped at my destinated stop.
run lah!

3reasons why i ran?
1-how can you be late for the Lord?!
2-cus i really dun wan to b late for Him.
3-i dun wan KENNI to scold me!

okieokie, hmm, reached church.
found the nissi archers at the playground.
hot sun lei!
hahas, okie, nina the ice-breaker-er
ask us to find peanuts.
black and orange.
hahas, i ddnt plae.
cus i ran mah, every tiring!
rebecca still sae i late in the end.
ah well.
later was ziyi's game.
the chinese thingy.
i duno wad bahhs!
all i noe is my chinese is horrible.
haha, den praise and worship.
den KENNI again.
haiya! always him.
he sae we sing out of tune.
okie, we out of tune. for 2 of the songs.
only 1 song, he sae we sing like choir.
hahas, and later he ask us sing two by two,
but i sing with 3!
me, sheena and medoly.
hahas, we 3 crazy monkeys r super hyper okie(:
but still sing out of tune.
only ziyi and pearlyn pass!
hahas.
nice nice! yea, den rebecca ask us to take a paper and pen.
and write our name.
den we pass anrd, den we mus ask qns that we wan to noe abt that person.
she somemore sae,
" dun ask those obvious qns like wad's your mother's full name or something. cus it's very... anw you wan to know more abt the person, not abt the family or anything hor! so mus ask NOT OBVIOUS questions."
okie, den we have to ans our own paper wad the others ask u bahhs.
den when come to rebecca turn hor.
she dun wan to sae lor!
esp the first qns, do you have a boyfriend?
other, do you like a boy? etc.
CORRECT RIGHT?
is it obvious? nope.
cus no one know mahh. hehe. =D
okie, den we went to beauty world.
ate at a coffee shop. we were crazy, all the way
goin there and back.

yea. pohying so lonely ma, den i jump to her.
den i went like, "lonely, im so lonely, i have nobody...."
until she at first was like normal normal one.
den she keep smiling ans talking. hahas!
okieokie, tell you im seriously crazy one.
yea, den stayed at the 1st floor once we're back at church.
plaed nina's captain game. den nissi archers have a new member!
a new brother too! PRAISE THE LORD!
ddnt reallie get his name though. sorrie.

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later was service, cus pastor daniel not arnd,
pastor song took over for the time being.
and KENNI said he's the boss of this church cus....
long story.
okie, den pastor song was like saying,
"erm, KENNI, i think you made a mistake. GOD is the boss of this church."
AMEN!
hahas, okie den he talked abt love...
and the first part of the sermon was, erm....
shant say anything here. hahas! cus everything was...
hahas! okieokie nth nth!
den he told us all abt love.
learnt that love produce hope, and hope produce faith.
and only through faith, we can hear and COMUNICATE with God.
cus once we have hope, we get obsessed with it.
that's where faith comes in!
cus anything and everythin we want or do is by faith and through faith.
the one who created us, the Lord, created us to love and be loved.
and we shall spread this love, that the Lord has poured into our hearts.

the most impt thing!
we cant love if we dun feel loved!
cus our hearts may be deeply cut, bleeding,
and no matter how hard someone tells us to love.
with a broken heart, you CANNOT love.
that's where God comes in, we shall ask Him
to heal this broken heart.
and to pour His love into our hearts.
so that we can love and be loved(:

next, in whatever we do.
we shall be motivated by Love and love alone!
cus pple in the world are motivated by fear.
which is wrong!
we dun do things cus we fear something might happen etc.
we do things for the love(:
to love Him, and others.
love is to sacrifice as well.
that's why Lord sent His one and only son to die for us.

third, LIKING IS NOT LOVING!
for example, when someone sees a person and gets excited
or whatever, and you think you have fallen for the person. in school or whatever,
THIS IS NOT LOVE!

okie, now to my point,
love is sacrifice
love is obedience
love is patience.
love is kind
love is NOT envy
love is NOT rude
love is NOT proud
love is NOT selfish
love is NOT easily anger
love is NOT judgement
lastly, LOVE KEEPS NO RECORD!

pride is the spirit of the devil
humdity is the spirit of Christ.
we cannot HURT and LOVE at the SAME TIME!

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okie, after service was dinner!
yum yum yummy!
okie, we sat on the floor this time round.
with mats.
yea, dinner was fried rice! hotdog! and chicken? or fish?
nvm, hahas, den duno why sheena all of a sudden call me monkey
forgot liao xD
yea, den they all dun talk to me cus they dun understand monkey language.
heyys! im speaking PURE HUMAN LANGUAGE!
hahas, den one by one cant resist den they talk to me, hmm,
sheena, medoly, rebecca, jaclyn, pearlyn (church one), dasiy
all become monkeys!
ziyi left to meet her dad.
pohying, duno why. maybe i too irritating le xD
tui bu qi. but she was smiling lor when she left!
hahas,
okieokie, den KENNI ah. alamak! duno why,
when all of us saying grace,
he budge in and say " talk, talk somemore! saying grace lei!"
but cus the further back ppl ddnt hear and ddnt know we were saying grace.
den nina thought KENNI was scolding her.
but rachel cried.
poor thing lei!
she jus come back and enjoyed herself
and now you scold her.
wa, but as kenni said, our cell grp ought to have more discipline.
yea.
den when rebecca and jaclyn went to talk to kenni.
wa, ask me to take care of the small kids.
cus i suppose to go home le ma.
but den, i still stayed, den all the small kid,
yea yea yea,
okie.
found that i have a boyfriend. okie yah so?
hahas, so jus admit ma.
run away for wad?
hahas. yea, i love nissi archers!
all my brothers and sisters!
love ya all lots!

okie, den went home, bathe, did quiet time. den sleep!
hahas. okie, nth else?
ciaos~

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countdown: back in

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hahas, okie back.
changed the pic, cus i find it quite dull.
changed song too!

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okie, today
nothing much bahhs.
the thing is im sooo excited abt church tomolo!
combine service.
sad thing is mission trip ppl are not arnd.
and one of them is my dear ben low.
sob sob.
hahas, my cell i'll b missing,
serene, wanzi, gideon, joel and munchung.
yea. hahas, the funny people.
my poor ziyi is ill,
i wan to cry lors.
tomolo hope she's better so she can teach me more.

okie, but alot of things are happening tomolo.
really reallie reallie cramp up together.
lucky no clash.
1st thing, dental appoinment at 8.30am
2nd thing, backbone checkup at 9am.
next, church! duno if there's time to go home n change before
goin to church.
yea yea.

mission trip ppl are goin away for 10days!

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