hellos peeps!
before i start ANYTHING.. i wan to sae : i love you all NISSI ARCHERS!
you guys all made my dae! love you all lots and lots.
feel so touched~ this year's birthdae is super awesome for me!
I JUST CANT HELP BUT SING HIS PRAISES!
hahas! yeap, i jus caNT smile without you~~

todae school was doing CIP, and my group had to do 4 or 5 blocks?
hahas! yeap and we finish super duper fast!
it's like amazing, cus i havent finish preparing for ice breakers.
but God gave me time to actually prepare.
PRAISE THE LORD!

yeap, i went off early, ice breaker went well too!
yayy!
PRAISE THE LORD!

service was awesome! felt God's presence in the place!
sermon was super as well! learnt many points,
seeking him more and more! so motivated!
PRAISE THE LORD!

next went for cell,
den all of a sudden serene play ice breaking.
passing the box.
yea, den i kena.
but in the end, the forfeit was...
happy birthdae to me!
hehe~ soo sweet, so touched! i love NISSI ARCHERS!
nissi archers are my sunshine, my only sunshine!
hehe~~
PRAISE THE LORD!

next went into small groups to share experiencing God.
went well, learn more and more new things!
hahas~ i love it mann~ i love to hear about God~~
yesh!! hahas! i love my LORD!
PRAISE THE LORD!

later was p n w yupps!
did at the staircase since no space,
den haokeit came too! yayy!
but all went well though it was weird sitting at the staircase.
but thank God we can at least have a place to praise and worship him right?
PRAISE THE LORD!

yupp, den went on for dinner!
but kenni scolded us cus we forgot to take his bag and left it downstairs.
yea, and i was still playin when he's angry, yea, sorry kenni.
gotta control, and yea, when kenni scolded me,
you all know i was the tpye who will cry!
but i ddnt! something spoke to me and said,
"control yourself next time, you did well by controlling your emotions..."
so in the end, i know kenni scolded me is for my own good.
yupps, so im really glad to have such a leader!
PRAISE THE LORD!

den when i arrived home, my mama bought me
2 new jackets, 1 green 1 white!
den bought me new shorts! green too!
hahas! so happy! PRAISE THE LORD!
I LOVE YOU LORD!
I LOVE YOU ALL NISSI ARCHERS!
hahas~~ treasure you all, cus you all are precious!

me and charis!
cell group gave me a pressie! thanks nissi archers!

the wrapper! so cutee~~ doggie doggie!

the card cell group gave me! love them lots!

my lovely card! treasure it! thanks alots! words cant explain how i feel now! you all are awesome! hehe, and i really wanna thank NISSI ARCHERS! for everything. jaclyn for baking the cake and sharing my NEW SERMON NOTEBOOK with wanzi and ziyi! thanks, everything i recieved todae are really precious.. i love you all.. seriously, thank you. how i wish i could cry, but im jus too happy.. thanks guys and girls. i love all that you all gave, the cake, the birthdae song, the presents, the cards and the wishes. and esp all the smiles on all of your faces, thanks guys. PRAISE THE LORD! thank you~~ hehe =DD

ciaos~

the CIP recycling! this is only 5% of the rubbish we collected for my group!

before i start anything let me jus sae: HAPPY BIRTHDAE EUNICE LIM!

hahas! my birthdae todae! and it's really the sweetest! thanks!
i wan to thank tons of people! love them all!
firstly, i wanna thank jaclyn for the first sms on my birthdae!
followed by ziyi! as well.
went to school, loves jean, jolene, mark, dominc, jiajun, emi, haokeit, charmaine, pamela, syri, yiqi and wenqi who were some of the first to wish me when i went to school.
next is the most dearest sweetest class! 3e3! sang me happy birthdae song when school nearly ended!
mr goh too! hehe(=
not forgetting, luqman, philbert, joel, jessica, melinda (for the advance wish), carmen and lots and lots more!
jus simply love you all peeps! you all made my dae!

todae ddnt really started well, teachers scolding, this and that nonesense.
but still, al turned out well!
thank God soo much for all my friends and family,
and thank Him for making everything soo wonderful!
i'll blog more next time,
got CIP tomolo and church.
my ice breaker still havent finish yet, oopps =X
hahas, love you all peeps!

ciaos~ =DDDDDD

todae was jus another pretty normal dae of sec3 life.
well, come to think of it, it feels sort of boring.
hmm, compare to sec1 and 2. sec3 life is like a slacking period.
slacking only when it comes to lessons and class.

but after school work is totally the opposite,
after school is fun, busy, stressful and simply hyperactive.
strange? yea, in some way.

there's something that keep running through my mind,
that one thing i cant understand and figure out why.
wad's so special about celebrating another year of life?
it comes to sae, my birthdae, which is tomolo.
this only refers to my case,
jus wondered and questioned myself, " why? "

for years, times, the only special moment,
the only dae which i was always excited about in the past,
was me and my birthdae.
it's jus simply wonderful when you see people celebrating one's birthdae.
knowing that we have grown and persevered another year of life.
everything changed for me, 6 to 7 years back.
when sometimes, the most special moment and dae of my life,
jus seem to have turned dull and it doesnt have the same excitement,
i cant sensed that " feeling " of a birthdae anymore.

as every year past, slowly there werent anymore celebrations,
work here and there, parents being busy,
friends, some may have jus forgotten.
for 6 to 7 years, all i always wish for,
all i always wanted as my birthdae present... ... ...
...was jus to have a proper birthdae celebration.

wad is it that draws me away from that colourful picture?
was it because of my surrounding? or is it jus me?
werid.
i've lost contact with all my grandparents,
my cousins and relatives.
i know they are still alive,
but it's jus that, im unable to see them..
not knowing wad they look like anymore.
not knowing who they are...
the people who shared my joys and sorrows in the past,
my love ones, were all jus written in words, without pictures.

it was a while before i could get over that situation.
but there were worst that came in,
my parents, how i wish they could do more that jus sae to me " happy brithdae my girl.."
all that happened was cutting the cake and that's all.
there werent any laughter,
werent any feeling of love..
it simply felt jus like any other daes in life,
nothing special, nothing new, i felt i was jus 2 years old yesterdae..

how many of you remembered wad happened to you when you were 2 years old?
and how many of you remembered the first dae you realised things around you?
when you werent a baby and woke up of bed and actually feel and realise things,
for the very first time in your life?
when you actually see yourself walking for the first time,
when you hear yourself call, "mama? papa?"
how many of you actually do?
...for me, i actually remembered it...

the feeling of love when you called and someone actually answers you.
and even help you, comfort you, and even guide you.
for the first time you called.
the first time you see the world, the first time.
even though i remembered it wasnt my birthdae,
the first dae i realised and actually see things,
felt as though it was the best dae ever in my life..

birthdae? well, it's jus another year past in life.
why do we have birthdaes?
is remembering the dae God created us.
and how i wish it was a dae where bonding can be made as well,
esp in my family.

i dont want another normal dae, i dont want jus to get presents,
i dont want to jus cut the cake!
but i want everyone to be happy,
i want to see my family smile, i want to hear their laughter on my birthdae..
i want everyone jus to be alright...
that's all i ask for.. nothing else..
it's only den i called it a proper birthdae celebration.

not another dull dae, not another please....
i jus ask for a celebration that where everyone is happy,
where everyone is alright and not ill.
where everyone... ... ... ... ...

but this time, i hope.. things would change..
i dont ask for presents, i jus wan to see the smiles on pple's faces.
to hear the joy and laughter..

i wan that feeling to come back, i jus wan the sense of love back once again,
on my birthdae..

sadly, im goin to be busy tomolo, ending school around 6.30pm.
and i think, my QT tonight, will be really long.
hahas, guessed so.. i duno wad else to sae... maybe there's nothing to sae anymore.

ciaos~

back to blog once again, yea, pple sae im blogging everydae.
wad else is expected of a young obfuscating girl?
maybe it's complicated, or maybe simple enough.

once again school is aint awesome,
aint fun or aint.. attention grabbing?
looking at me taking so many pics,
you could conclude that i was bored in class.
together with the simply jus cool charmaine.
at times, yea. esp bio lessons. it's jus that.






pretty cool heh? triple double style? maybe.





maybe it was jus the shocking girl?










okie, look at how bored i was and you could figure it out why there're pic's all over this post.

and as charmaine always say, cause she's cool like that. yea, somehow cool right?



alright alright. after house practice i went home, and somehow end up arguing with keith and being pissed off by him.
heyy, imagine someone throws his temper at the innocent for no particular reason.
it's simply unreasonable. i jus dont know wad to sae about that guy.
ah well, still gotta think of him, and pray for him.

and arrived home, bathe and went for tuition straight.
gosh, im late for 30mins.
more than that to be exact.
got tummy cramp and it's darn pain.
thought i got a fever somehow as well. i couldnt even walk properly.
and prayers work wonders! seeking him!
i called, He answered, and He came to my rescue!
woo~ God is an awesome God!

gotta sleep early, oh man! tomolo is maths test and i've not studied!
nvm, i will pass! gotta study and rmb! i am NOT STM anymore heyy!

love my awesome God!~

ciaos~

now currently at my darling unmbrella's house posting.
yea, today was messed up big time. maybe it's jus my feelings.
guessed that i still need some time..

let me begin this new page written in another dae of my life.
maybe i should start writing a book of all the things that happened in my life and how it was changed. completely.
looking at the past, looking at the present.
many happened, sad? happy? it's jus obfuscating.
maybe i was stupid. maybe i used to b dumb,
but now, im looking at a whole new me.
my experiences changed me comparing past and present.
future? it never came across my mind.
for all i shall worry is todae, for tomolo can worry about itself.

should i give up on council?
maybe i should, i cant take too much loads.
other's can manage, but sadly i cant.
all my focus now is firstly and most importantly, God.
following with both my studies and my family.
maybe i'm not that mature yet.
slowly, unless my faith strengthens, im unable to hold anymore jobs.
i am jus willing to give upeverything for Him,
i jus wan to lean more and seek more and even hear more.
maybe till now, im jus not trying hard enough.
but as time goes by, i know im able to change, for Him.

school was pretty boring. wad can i sae?
it's about the same every single dae isnt i?
nope, sometimes it get interesting, but again, things may jus turn out otherwise.
maybe i did something wrong, maybe it was something for me to learn.
guess..maybe i still need to fully wake up.
talking to my dear umbrella, (she's jessica, a human alright)
i tried to find out some answers, maybe i was trying too hard,
cus i got nothing in the end.

i hope i can see my answers.
i know i'll see my answers, sigh, i guess i have to wait patiently.
for now, all i can do is to cont to do my QT faithfully and to stay faithful to Him.
(and of course, not to sin)
some how know me better, may know im being too hard on myself,
and truly enough, i was hard, but maybe a little over hard on myself.
tonight gotta do homework and study. and well, nothing much.
gotta believe to see. yea, i rmb wad ziyi always sae to me.

ciaos~

back to post pple!
yea yea~ now feeling sort of...
...i duno, i dont feel myself once again.

anyway, jus to sae the whole week was awesome for me.
i know many bad things happened, but God completely change all the situations i was in.
super awesome yea!~
hmm, mondae was the NE speech thingy and i totally messed up.
nervous, speaking in front of the school like that.
but however, things turned out fine, the teachers were alright and were please about the slides.
yea, thank Lord!

secondly, about the hanphone thingy where i got so many blames.
i did not lose them! as mark said, someone stole them and it's definate not me.
i wont do such a thing, den i talked to jean mama~ about it.
mama said i should lift everything up to God,
cus she cantdo anything as well, only God can do something.
yea, so i did during my QT. den, the following dae,
mark come to tell me not to worry n it's confirm someone stole it n not me.
so i was at ease.

thirdly, on thursdae, i was suppose to meet rebecca, nina, jack and keith.
so rebecca can go through andteach us properl how to do the experiencing God book.
but den, rebecca decided not to meet us,
cus nina forgot to bring the book, keith oso dun wan to come.
den at rebecca's place, it was raining heavily.
and as rebeeca said, God wanted her to go home.
bu rebecca insist not to, dn suddenly rain, den at the bus stop,
she sae the bus to go home arrived too.
so she went home.

at first i was a little upset,
cus i reallie wanted to do the book,
somemore i prepared to go out till rebecca called me sae not meeting le.
so i stayed at home.
suddenly something struck my mind.
"go and read the bible and rmb your verses since you have the time.."
so i was like thinking, "is it me? or is God speaking?"
cus im not the hardworking type.
but still, i went to rmb the new testaments in order.
den on the 2nd try, i managed to rmb all!
den i was like so happy, and making sure i wont forget, i kept testing myself everydae.

last of all was yesterdae, church!
i woke up super early, and i was at home looking at the clock.
to reach church needs 30mins.
but i thought, if i leave now, i would be in church supe darn early.
but again, something came to my mind,
"jus leave NOW."
erps, den i jus left for church with my bro.
at the bus stop, i was thinking,
oh man~ so early?
but again, the bus came in 10mins time.
but when i arrive, i still would be super early!

i jus board the bus and waited till i arrived at my destination.
all of a sudden i was thinking, how come the bus so slow?
den i looked out, oh mann!traffic jam!
how how how?
i kept thinking, will reach late or early? ahhhh!!
at my destination, i and my bro walked to church,
cus i decided not to rush.
amazingly i arrived church 5mins early! and when i take the lift up! i was on time!
woohoo!~ awesome dude!

after church tuition,
i went to mac, den i letmy bro eat, cus i meeting becca at church.
so i ddnt eat and jus bought food fo my bro and went back to church.
den i saw gideon and munchung!
hahas, gideon's little brother was cute and childish, like gideon himself, not surprised.
hahas.
yea~ den i decided to o and rmb my new testaments again, make sure i dont forget.
so i did, den i went to write memory verses.
cus i haven write down all yet.
soon ZIYI my super duper greatest discipler arrived!
yea she came early to practice p n w.
becca and jaclyn came soon as well, bought mac for us,
THANK YOU! =DD

den suddenly i felt sian again,
always like that, wa! hate it mann!
i hate feeling down when im in church!
but den, i start drawing and sketching.
dasiy came by.
and she saw my drawings, she wanted to learn too.
hahas, so i taught her, and she was really really interested.
and she catch up quite well, fast learner (:
i felt God's presence as i watch how dasiy drew better n better each time.
felt happy or her. thank LORD!

many others came as well as the time went by,
yupp. cus the disciplers haing meeting, den cant disturb,
so i mixed arnd with the rest.
and at 1pm.
ice breakers started, we all plaed like crazy! running here and there.
yeap.
and during service, learnt lots as well!
esp learning how to do God's will, and the meaning of God-centered and self-centered.
sermon was really meaningful!
about how are we suppose to think.
and that we mus not look at man's perspective BUT look at God's perspective.
think it the LORD's way.
we mus seek God's kingdom first and we mus stand strong in temptation.
trust in the name of the Lord.
self-centeredness is controlled by pride and self-acomplishment.
and we mus not b self centered!
all praise and glory is only to the King, our Lord.

most importantly, i've learnt. to be a joyful Christan.
no matter what happens, i gotta have the joy of the Christ(:
hahas.

okie later on went back for cell grp. next, p n w.
and i kept feeling God's presence! awesome!~
God is Great! gonna sing His Praise! xDD

this week, im gonna seek God everydae! all dAe!

later got tuition. but im sortta sleepy. yawn~
jaclyn asked me some f my particulars todae.
erps, i felt werid, cus becca should be doing the job ma?

ciaos~

HELLOS! (:
shouting out!: i love the Lord, my God!

oh mann. im going to suffer in my studies if i contiune to b so busy.

firstly, CONFIRMATION I WILL FAIL MY ENGLISH TEST!
secondly, CONFIRMATION I WILL FAIL MY BIOLOGY TEST!!
thirdly, im slacking at home..

okie, later im not so sure if i will be meeting up with becca,
to do 'experiencing God' book.
nina and hao kiet comin too!
but the keith ah~ sae becca got exams,
so if becca cannot confirm she's coming or not,
keith sae he not coming. haixx~ ah well.

todae was mostly a exam dae.
i ddnt finish any of the papers as i ddnt study!
yesterdae arrived home at 6.30pm
den left for tuition at 7.
reach home around 9.
did my QT and it was late. and i was tired.
so i slept. oh mann...~

i wan to excel in ARTS! woohoo~
love art like crazy dude.
but i love God even more!~ yea baby!

coconut tree, kukumalu, single cell, phantom, rabbit, freeloader...
..how manymore nicknames will i have?

ciaos~

one more thing,
I LOVE ZIYI! =DD

the best ever and the dae i ever enjoyed school!
yea baby~ slacking was all that happened todae.
believe it or not~ cool~ in fact, so far, the week is pretty slack-ish.
art lesson todae learnt a pretty awesome skill.
yea,english was all jokes.
pe was playing VOLLEYBALL!
hmm, bio was super bored,
hmm, maths was okie i suppose.

and this post is to all those who think heard from madeline wong.
if any of you wish to believe her, it's still your choice.
i never and did not go around claiming " i will take care of mark's phone."
mark knew i took his phone, many others as well.
but i know, i left it back to where i took them from.
im not blaming them, but they temselves left the phones on the table.
so listen to this, am i wrong to put it back on the phone back to it's original position?
all of us know the council room door is spoiled and unable to lock.
so if anything go missing, it must not mean the last person who used it is to blame.
i did my job, returning back to it's oiginal position.
fo i was leaving the school. how would i know wad happened to it?
anyway, madeline wong isnt involved in this situation,
so if you still insist to believe her, it's your choice, i still can do nothing.

madeline wong even messaged my mum,
so if your purpose is jus to let my mum know,
yea my ma knows.
and she's irritated by madeline.

okie, hmmm, after school, went to SC room met jean.
yea, did some work and chat.
the whole situatuion if you wna blame me madeline wong,
i cannot stop you, cus guessed wad, i dont care wad u sae madeline wong.

hmmm, den listen to music, chated with daniel, jolene and gwen too
=DD
hahas, yea and soon, jowell and xuewen came back! from acjc.
hehe, yea, talked, messed, plae!
hahas, den went to hawker with jean and met sam too!
had some desert! yea~ fight fight! xD
den nice of both of them to walk me home right?
hehe, jean mama~ sam papa?~
okie, went home, den off for tuition.
everything went well except for madd's situation, but actually, i dont care xD

lifting everything up to God. He is my Way =)

ciaos~

i was super bored during lessons, super hyper after school.
aint i simply obfuscating?
n one more thing, i cant bear to see someone suffering..
after all, we were all created under his hands, there's no difference..
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i simply do not wish to talk about this but i cant jus keep this inisde anymore okie. let me begin by saying, after learning so much about Christ, about His will, and to control my emotions. let me say this, no matter what, whom i dislike or close or not in contact at all, i still CAN NEVER bear to see one i once knew suffering. As it was written, " if your enemy is hungry, feed him; if he is thirsty, give him something to drink."
to be frank, i wan to comfort you, but i could not bring myself to talk or speak to you anymore. for i do not wan to create misunderstandings. but seriously i gotta sae something, you are jus thinking and dreaming too much! it's useless okie! why contiune walk deeper n deeper into the dark? God has always called and try to reach out to you.. but wad did you do? forsake him? and contiune your ways? hump! when you have the greatest person of all, God, who gave the greatest love of all to you, you choose to give him up and seek love outside. what's wrong? there's something wrong, dont you feel that something's not right? you failed so many times seking love outside. have you ver seek his love at all? you jus thank him, give him praise, but you choose others instead of him?
we belive to see, NOT see to believe. for that is faith! would you ever understand? so what if you still same the same old thing "YOU dont decide for me!"? im never deciding for you, now all God wans is to see you seek him more for his love and not the love outside! FACE IT, YOU ARE NOT SPIRITUALLY MATURE ENOUGH! that's why u always fail, you always had a dream, dream of seeing your true love, but in the end, it all ddnt work out. reflect would you? all you know is to boss people around, it doesnt mean that you have your rights you mus ask others to live up to your expectations! wrong! contiune this way and you'll end up hurting yourself deeper! God jus wish you could turn back to him... "our greatest glory is not in never failing, but rising everytime we fall...
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okie, i think that's all, hahas, i jus wanna shout out!
ZIYI is my best discipler in da world! i love ziyi lots n lots!

yesterdae, church sermon is like...
God speaking to me or something.
felt much better after that,
and i think i should stop crying so much,
if not i'll end up in depression once again.

sorry guys, im jus an over emotional and over sensitive person.
once again, i'll never be sad 90% or 95%...
i'll be to the extreme 101%...

yea, and so, i gotta overcome it.

maybe i was too foolish,
i shouldnt have let down the person i always looked up to.
time, that's my main problem.
this entire week had been really hard for me,
school people? nah, not all know.
i dont tell them, i jus keep everything inside.
stupid? maybe.

it has been work after work after work.
i've so much things in my head,
much a heavy load to carry.do you all know it?
i should have plan and managed me time properly.
but i never thought of sitting down and of giving it a thought before.
cus all that keep running through my mind is that wad i was thrown to do.
school, npcc, family, friends, church, plannings etc.
i was pratically skipping my meals and i was lacking of sleep.
for the whole week, people in school thought i got sore eyes even.

wad's worst is that i ddnt managed a time,
a time where situations could have turn it's tables.
im really sorry... ziyi...

God seems to have answered my questions.
and knowing, that i have been doing things my own way.
i jus initiate things on my own.
even during my quiet times,
God has been telling me to trust in Him and do not jus focus on work alone.
and jus look wad i have done?!
sigh, feel like im jus a disappointment.

" when a man works, his wages are not credited to him as a gift but as an obligation, however to a man who does not work but trust God, his faith is credited."

it doesnt mean i mus not work, it jus means we mus not be controlled over the works of this world,
but the work of Him, His will.
as in John chapter 4:34,
"my nourishment comes from doing the Will of God who sent me from finishing His work."
it simply means we should lean on the Lord for direction, and keep leaning on Him for the wisdom and courage to do our work.

guess that i have to really make a choice,
being too stressed up turns me into a silly crybaby..
hahas.
ah well, i jus wna sae, im sorry guys, but i've learnt,
i was jus too harsh on myself yesterdae when all the work i've let go jus came as a flashback.
i jus love you all! i love ziyi! i love jaclyn! i love kenni! i love rebecca!
love all you all lots! but i love God most!
thank you!
woohoo~ gonna change yea! impact!
nothing's gonna change my love for you!!
seeking you all the more! yea~

ciaos~
im one stupid hyper insane rabbit~ =D
meowing rabbit~ xD

as my life seems to be drowning in the depts of sorrowness,
i reamined unruffled no matter how much harsh and saddness fills me.
hiding behind the mask where others view me as normal and hyper.
without expecting the true identity of me, was a different case.
is it obfuscating? or is it jus making sense?

and again, school was normal, perfectly normal.
but the one and only thing i feel not right about is myself,
im fine physically, sadly not mentally or emotionally.
how is one suppose to manage when one is given onerous tasks,
every single dae. pretty tiring for i would sae.
i tried, but i felt that i could not exert myself too much.
sorrowness was kept backstage in a corner,
difficult for one to realise.

but since i've blog it down, anyone who reads will know
am i right?
maybe i should take a full dae off or something,
im tired and suffering at the tip of my limits.
however i tried my very best to remain composed.
quiet for no one to know but God alone.
for only in Him, i find that i can resolvemy troubles that constantly wonders unknowingly in my head.

my heart deepens in the sea of sorrowness
where i try my best to strive and reach out for help.
maybe i'll drown, maybe i wont.
maybe i will only be saved at my very last breath.
so that i could have a learning experince as i rejoice in my sufferings.
for suffering produce endurance, which produce character, which produce hope.
and hope that will not put us to shame.

i dont need a beautiful dae to tide me through my life.
in sufferings or joy, it's all the same.

once again, i do not need any corncern,
because the injuries i have is out of your imagination.
so no matter how much anyone talk or counsel me,
i would be the same, unless i hear the word of God,
my attention will be caught.

as for now, the eunice you all know is the same on the outside,
but from the inside, you'll see a out of the universe side of me.. ..

im jus bloggin to throw everything out of me, so please dun mind me.

ciaos~

i should learn to stop blogging so much,
it's jus that here is the place i'll come to throw out all my emotions.
but of course, before that i will seek God first.

emotions, false or true it doesnt matter, cus i dont believe in them.
so whatever i feel, i'll jus throw them out of me.
so bear with it, i apologise.

firstly todae started off with school,
and i simply have the same old mood everydae in class.
im not hyper anymore.
im jus simple plain sian.
but i still study, work and listen.
yea, others always see me as that im always alright.
but guessed wad?
it's totally WRONG!

if what you all dislike is me, frankly im totally alright with it FINE!

you see one face on a side that look perfectly okie,
but when the face turns, you'll soon realise the 180 degree turn.
it's simply off, as i said before, im never the middle,
im to the extreme!
so if you finally realise im NOT alright,
dont waste your time thinking! cus it's beyond your imagination!
forget it and jus buzz off! i hate standing people who rides the high horse!

every cloud has a silver lining.
yea, and i know God will hep me through.
cus the best time i ever love is going home by myself.
cus as i walk, i could really feel God's presence.
exactlly beside me. i love Him so much!

i jus wan to help the people around me.
no matter the result is horrible for me but if it's for their benefits,
i would sacrifce myself for you all people out there!
i jus wan to... ...

know it! for it may.. ... ..

ciaos~

it's jus confusing.
when your mind finds it hard, cus your answer is between yes and no.
so wad is it? simply jus a complication that should be put out of mind?
or otherwise?
being pulled by both ends, will one fall apart, or endure the tougher sufferings?
well, i dont have an answer in this "book" of mine.

school was per normal,
jus that i was somehow amazed during one lesson.
and somehow got sadden.
strange? i was amaze yet sadden.
hahas, maybe that's jus me.

somethings are like really important to you.
may it be cca or work or studies.
and things you've put in lots of effort,
things you really can bring glory to the school and to it's benefits.
but again, it some things jus falls on a saturdae.
disapointing. seriously.
ATC, hope it wont fall on a saturdae.
i hope all the events that are important dont fall on saturdaes anymore.

if they do, i still have to give them up no matter how much effort was lost.
cus there're some things that are way more important..
i know, He knows what's best for me.
no matter how much i sacrifice, no matter how much the world hates me.
i will never forske Him as He never forsake me at all.

i know.
know it.
for it's righteous.

ciaos~

okie, bloggin once again.
yea, not much happened though.

hmm, todae after school,
me and madeline went to meet ms noor
cus she wanted to see both of us.
yea, and she asked both of us to attend a NE talk.
yea, where there'll be many other schools,
many important ministers etc.
who will be giving a talk on the NE for secondary schools.

bad thing is, it's on saturdae.
9am to 1pm
and it's on 27th jan.
which is the dae im doing my first ice breaking as well.
somemore i have church tuition at 9am.
which is total clash.
okie, it would be great to go to attend the whole talk thing.
but, i duno, i jus straight away told her if i go i need to leave early for my church.
and madeline was giving me the look,
as if she was saying, " alamak! you and your church again!!!!"
yea, but i still turned down the offer in the end.
so i still chose church over so many things.
hmm, so far,
im not going npcc dae parade cus of church,
now this talk thing for church,
and maybe, i may even NOT go for my ATC camp,
which will fall on a saturdae.
all are kind of impt, but He is more impt.
yea, so sorry..

okie, den pamela and justin quek came to my house.
but 1st go pam pam house, where she left all her bag n books.
den went to kfc to eat.
and i saw ZIYI!! hehe! i duno lahh.
i see her i always very happy de(:
but she find me irritating so ah well.
hahas, okie den eat le, went to my house lorr.
den plae with my darling laptop!
justin plae maple, lol!
pam download pics.
and we all watch youtube!!
hehe(:

hiaya, i never go training cus my ma sae go so many times,
den later i never rest enough.
but she sae dun go for one time only
the other trainings I AM COMING! xD
ahahx..
yea, and i gotta study and do my homework.
cus the jack jack suppose to give me my homework last week,
den he give todae only!
ahh! i got a few hours to do only!
den i going study lorr, i feel werid bahhs,
cus i dun usually study de, hehe, get the point?

pearlyn jus called, yayy! she meeting me, justin quek, and lionel.
hahas, yeap! and i jus pray jack can come to church everyweek.
yea, if not i forgot how he look like le ( but i see him in class everydae >.< )

yea, nothing le ma?

ciaos~!

i jus wan more and more of Him!

chaos jus fills my mind as i think of all the piles of heavy work.
oh mann, ah well.
God jus reminded me not to think more of solutions but more of Him!
yea! hahas, jus now im seriously down once again for no reason.
pretty dumb heh.
yea, love God so much! forever im changed my His love!(:
Praise God!

and i really really wna do discipleship heh..
yesterdae i forgot to bring new life book. wahhs... *cries*
hahas, anyway, i think i'll sacrifice some of my time,
so that i can spend time with God.
yea, and i've decided not to go for Npcc dae parade,
because the actual dae is on a SATURDAE!
yea! and i cannot afford to miss church hellos!(:

i jus simply wanna sped more time with God, though i have so much stress, work, trainings.
i jus wan more of Him! i hunger for the Lord(:

okie, school was pretty, erps, duno wad to sae.
the year ddnt start off in a good note.
but the sec one oreintation was awesome, thank God!
this coming fridae is the sec 1 recuitment already, training everydae.
and i got in choir. but i dun feel like joining.
i need to manage my time, if not my effort will go to waste.
den im meeting pamela and justinquek.
there's tons to do in sec3 life.
worhs, i really need help, from God!
seeking you Lord! iLu!

one more thing, i think my school bag is goin to break if
i have to carry so many thick heavy books everydae.
phew...

countdown to my 15th year in life!
19 more daes!
xD

ciaos~!