confusion, choices, conflicts..
i really dun know wad to do..
i really dun.. ...

wad am i to do?... im already 'half dead'.
the more i think, the more i get tired.
but i have to... make a choice.

okie, ddnt blog or touch the com for 1 entire week.

yeasterdae was church.
sorry people, not as hyper as usual.
went out of the house early in the morning,
to buy munchung's cake.
cus cell was celebratin his bdae.
so nina suggested to buy fruit cake.
and REBECCA, told me to get a cake less than 10bucks.
can anyone of you out there tell me where shall i find a fruit cake less than 10bucks?
okie, as i told the cell im gna donate the cake
(means im not getin any $$ back)
i ddnt really care how much the cake was.
you know why?
heyy, im celebrating it for one of my bro in christ.
i DO NOT care how much it cost!
okie, sorry for the strong words.
no offence.

den had lunch, went to church in a taxi.
i was super duper early.
left the cake in the cafe.
went to basement and found not even a shadow.
decided to look at the playground and there they were.
some of them,
hmm, serene, wanzi, joel, munchung, gideon, and nina.
sigh.
everything went smoothly i suppose.
i shant go into details.
and i kena spritual attack again.

dinner.
out of the blue we found out there wasnt any catering.
so had to go to beauty world to eat.
me and pohying went to macs and back to the coffee shop where the others were.
upon knowing that i ate mac.
kenni pushed my head.
got headache already still push.
cus he sae i so ill still eat mac.
okie, my fault, im sorry, i ddnt mean it that way.

later on he talked to me.
personally.
at first he thought i was angry with him.
cus he pushed my head.
but seriously, im not angry at all.
den, he jumped into me and my dear's relationship.
telling me that the leaders disagreeded with realtionships in the church.
telling me about all the etc etc stuffs.
and he hope i would go home and consider my decision.

i shant say any further.
the result, no one shall know except me.
and the truth will be unfold.
one day, i suppose.
i need help!
i do not want to part from him.
and even more, i do not wan to drifted away,
from the both of them.
both him and Him (the Lord).
kenni told me to decide,
i seriously seriously dun know!
i wanted both. cus i seriously love both...

shall i fight for wad i truly believe in?

or...

shall i sacrifice? one for the other...?