you are jus another memory of the past.
but letting go, it's not jus a instant thing.
a minute to like, an hour to love..
but a lifetime to forget.

i really wan to let you go.
i do not want to be distracted anymore.
from the Lord.

but you never loved me at all.
your thinking of love was jus a liking for me..
why did i ended myself in this mess?

love is sacrifice
love is obedience
love is patience.
love is kind
love is NOT envy
love is NOT rude
love is NOT proud
love is NOT selfish
love is NOT easily anger
love is NOT judgement
lastly, LOVE KEEPS NO RECORD!

pride is the spirit of the devil
humdity is the spirit of Christ.

we cannot HURT and LOVE at the SAME TIME!

im not spiritually mature enough to have a relationship with you.
you are not as well.
in actual fact, we both dun know how to love each other properly.
reaulting in conflicts.
it's not because that...
you're more serious n im more joyful
which resulted in alot of conflicts.
WRONG!
if you truly loved me, you would have waited.
love is patience and not easily angered.
love keeps no record!

maybe it was all a learning point.
im not getting myself into anymore relationships.
till im really spiritually mature.

all i wan to focus on now is the Lord.
if i could, i would wish i could turn back time.
not to heal things.
not to change things.
is to be like the friends we once were.
we were happier, more open minded, etc.

I WANT TO LET YOU GO!
but my heart jus cant, cus i commited all my love for you..

ever since we both ended our relatonship,
i thought i could live freely with the Lord.
but now you distract me so much.
flashbacks from the past keep comin back at me.
i wake up ever morning hoping to see your sms once again.
to talk to you on the phone nearly everyday.
but now it's no more.
CANT YOU SEE I LOVE YOU SO MUCH?

maybe it was my fault,
that i love you so much
but i duno how to show it to you,
in both words and actions.

i really need only the Lord.
but i need to forget you..
to earse you from my mind everyday.
to release myself from you..
i dun wan anymore pain.

i contiune to struggle...
hoping that someday i'll forget you.
until we meet again, when im fully spiritually mature.
maybe, and only maybe, the past would return.....