yesterdae, church sermon is like...
God speaking to me or something.
felt much better after that,
and i think i should stop crying so much,
if not i'll end up in depression once again.

sorry guys, im jus an over emotional and over sensitive person.
once again, i'll never be sad 90% or 95%...
i'll be to the extreme 101%...

yea, and so, i gotta overcome it.

maybe i was too foolish,
i shouldnt have let down the person i always looked up to.
time, that's my main problem.
this entire week had been really hard for me,
school people? nah, not all know.
i dont tell them, i jus keep everything inside.
stupid? maybe.

it has been work after work after work.
i've so much things in my head,
much a heavy load to carry.do you all know it?
i should have plan and managed me time properly.
but i never thought of sitting down and of giving it a thought before.
cus all that keep running through my mind is that wad i was thrown to do.
school, npcc, family, friends, church, plannings etc.
i was pratically skipping my meals and i was lacking of sleep.
for the whole week, people in school thought i got sore eyes even.

wad's worst is that i ddnt managed a time,
a time where situations could have turn it's tables.
im really sorry... ziyi...

God seems to have answered my questions.
and knowing, that i have been doing things my own way.
i jus initiate things on my own.
even during my quiet times,
God has been telling me to trust in Him and do not jus focus on work alone.
and jus look wad i have done?!
sigh, feel like im jus a disappointment.

" when a man works, his wages are not credited to him as a gift but as an obligation, however to a man who does not work but trust God, his faith is credited."

it doesnt mean i mus not work, it jus means we mus not be controlled over the works of this world,
but the work of Him, His will.
as in John chapter 4:34,
"my nourishment comes from doing the Will of God who sent me from finishing His work."
it simply means we should lean on the Lord for direction, and keep leaning on Him for the wisdom and courage to do our work.

guess that i have to really make a choice,
being too stressed up turns me into a silly crybaby..
hahas.
ah well, i jus wna sae, im sorry guys, but i've learnt,
i was jus too harsh on myself yesterdae when all the work i've let go jus came as a flashback.
i jus love you all! i love ziyi! i love jaclyn! i love kenni! i love rebecca!
love all you all lots! but i love God most!
thank you!
woohoo~ gonna change yea! impact!
nothing's gonna change my love for you!!
seeking you all the more! yea~

ciaos~
im one stupid hyper insane rabbit~ =D
meowing rabbit~ xD