but since i've nothing to do, ah well, i'll jus post something.
FRIDAY 9th FEB!
the O'lvl results yea!
had 3 situations or so called events clashing all at the same time.
art workshop, NPCC, and the O'lvls ushering.
wad can i say? the first thing i had to do,
i gotta pray.
i really ddnt know wad to go to,
but all i knew was that God wanted me to stay in school.
which resulted me not going for my art workshop at bishan park sec.
it was a rare chance but yet i let go of it.
leaving NPCC and the ushering to choose from.
and since many were in ushering, and my NPCC senior ddnt mind.
i decided to go to the hall.
in the hall
after helping out to prepare the chairs and the needed materials,
the previous batch of sec4s returned.
i walked out and stayed jus outside the hall,
like the others i await to hear great results.
many did great in their results, many were happy,
but sadly, those who i knew were suppose to score well,
ddnt get their expected results.
all you could hear were pple crying,
as the sorrows overtook the happiness in the hall.
as i look at all my friends, i took at their sadness,
i never seen anyone cry so badly before,
it jus hurts to see the seniors that brought my batch up,
in such pain.
evenmore, one of my Npcc senior,
i do not know him well for i never really talked to him,
after he looked at his results,
he wanted to jump off the building so bad.
he cant stop crying, he simply cant.
3 teachers had to hold him down in case he really jumped off.
it was really, unbearerable for him.
people wonder,
how could a simple piece of paper destroy you,
simply jus like that?
O'lvls destroy you.
n that's why when you do well,
they are great testimonies.
it really had put me in a place where i don't want to be.
n that is,
imagining myself being like him.
never had i seen someone who wanted to end his life like that.
now i cant help but think of it when it comes to my turn,
will i be the one that is rejoicing, of would i be like one of the many,
who turned out badly hurt, drowned in sorrowness.
i cant help but think and wonder
and i knew, if i carried on my laziness in school like that,
it would turned out having another set of the same history
which i wont want.
everything that happened in the hall that very day,
really pulled me back like a wake up call.
thank God that i experienced this,
cus im gonna work harder, cus im motivated to.
i gotta pray for the school,
i believe God will change everything for PEIRCE.
SATURDAY 10th FEB!
it was finally saturday once again!
church, who will not be excited?
that dae was steamboat, yupp!
cell grp went per normal,
service really taught me alot.
jus simply felt God's presence and it seems my long waited answer,
has jus struck me and i was glad.
eerong accepted Christ! yayy!
and during praise and worship she even jumped!
cool! awesome right?
my first time i ddnt even jumped.
after service we went for steamboat,
at marina and we all were super high,
well, maybe not for me.
anyway, hahas, victor and mel bully!
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mel: *tap my left shoulder*
eunice: *turned to the left* melissa!!
victor: *tap my right shoulder*
eunice: victor!!
mel: victor! stop it la.
victor: heyy! you are the one lorr!
mel: eunice you believe who? me or him?
victor: ya, you believe me or her?
eunice: you both bully me!!!!
mel: *pushed my head down* ya lah! victor! bully her for wad?
victor: *pushed my head down again...* heyy, wad me? you stop bullying her!
mel: *argue* *pushed my head again.....*
victor: *argue* *pushed my head again.....*
mel & victor: * contiune pushin my head.......!*
eunice: ahh! you two stop bullying me! wad realtionship you both have ah?! =X
mel & victor: *both turned n look at me*
mel: orh! u die le.
victor: wad you say ah?
mel: victor, i feel like getting hot water, you?
victor: me too, i feel like getting the steam boat here.
mel: yah, i think i should do that too.
eunice: * RUN AWAY!!*
gideon and joel: eunice! wad u doing? *blurr*
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hahas! yea! church have the nicest and funniest pple!
we cook n cook n cook n eat n eat n eat.
hahas! im gonna exercise mann!
den during steamboat, we sang yewi happy birthdae song too!
one year older! hahas!
next we did video shoot for slyvester birthdae,
and yewi is super flexible pro sia!
she did 2 back flip i think and shouted to the camera happy birthdae!
hahas! cool!
soon, it was time to return back home.
and i think i felt tired or something,
cus many thoughts jus ran arcoss my mind jus like that.
when i waved goodbye to jaclyn after she boarded the bus.
i kept thinking and thinking. and i felt werid.
all of a sudden i felt like im in a place in an ancient city,
where i dont know anything, where all i felt was jus confusions and complications.
wad happened to me? that's something i dont know.
i pictured everything dark, cold, windy as i stood in the unknown acient city,
it seems like eygpt of something, sand on the ground,
buildings made of like rock or something.
i was lost, till i saw light... ...
and i realised it was my 'Map',
someone who actually guided me through till hear i voice,
"trust in me, and follow this way..."
the next thing i knew, i arrived at my destinated stop where i alight the bus.
i couldnt remember if i did really board the bus or something.
strange.
at night, i kept thinking once again,
negative thoughts, postive ones as well,
all jumbled up in the small space in my head.
but no matter what, i know,
not caring how much im hurt,
not bothering how broken down i am,
He is still there for me, i'll never let go
cus all i need was Him..
*yawn~*
ddnt sleep well in the night, maybe i was really thinking too much,
woke up serveral times at night. heard voices.
i stayed up awhile before i returned to bed everytime i woke up.
i still wonder now,
wad's
ciaos~