since I've got nothing better to do.
after this post, i shall start fasting from blogger.com
it doesnt mean i will stop blogg hopping :D

starting everything off with..
NPCC
ah.. my one and only CCA.
how nice, it's my favourite one and only CCA
yet i'm losing my passion in it.

insipid. that's the word to describe.
boring, simply that.
another, unreasonable.
so what if you have the rank? so what if you are better?
so what?
the rank on you is after all another piece of cloth!
because you are complancent, impudent!
the rank on you is NOTHING to the squad.

was super pissed off today during NPCC.
they are simply the bane of my existance.
senior seniors and seniors, ahh!
how many times mus they treat us in a way
that they'll lose the cadet's respect training after training?

and vivien, i'm not angry at you.
it's jus that when you say,
"next training i dont wan to see anyone in pt kit."
you're indirectly pointing arrows at me as i'm the only one wearing pt.
i know you're not that bad person, yeap :D
cus you have my respect :)
not like some others who jus boast and show off.
asinine freaks. get out of my life!

when one has a position,
one misuse his power, thus, = war.
Mr tan currently need people for the annual parade for NPCC.
though my soul is trashed and destroyed because of some people,
losing my passion for NPCC,
my spirit still burns in me.
Mr tan asked if i wished to be a flag barrer.
a rare chance, a rare opportunity.
but without a second thought, i turned him down,
he turns out disappointed, but he still smiles at me.
i told him i had church,
i dont wan to lose the fire, the hunger for God.
as mr tan walks away, i turned too, and walked in the opposite direction
he was walking.
next thing i knew,
i was screaming, " ahh! euniceeee! why did you turn him down?!"
mr tan has alot of my respect,
and i never even thought for one second,
and i replied him straight "no."
holding the Peirce flag in the whole paprade.
with the other 200 schools in singapore.
what great honour would that be?
glory to the school, but i dont know how much this means to the Father.
will it result another waste of time?
or a new path, a new look and glory for 2 at a time?
i duno.. seriously.

so in conclusion of NPCC,
i dont really know if i have passion for it or not.
i do it, because i love NPCC.
but when people dont appreciate,
i jus cannot stand there and let them torture us like that.
things are really hard to choose.
go for it, or not?

this year,
NPCC is the Gaurd Of Honour for speech day.
and there're problems, really great ones.
first and for most,
we are lacking people,
in G.O.H.
we need 36 of us.
but all we have, the regulars,
only around 28.
how are we to get the irregulars back?
and speech day, is around the corner.
APRIL.
not july or Augest.
we have the most, 2 months.
and we are lacking both time and people.
this is our only chance to show what we're worth.
because if not, NPCC is about the close down.
and maybe it would even before i pass out.
oh mann, now what?

much to do, but so little time.
i hate things. but i have to love them.
reason, hatred brings me no where.
with such a strong NPCC officer, our teacher,
puting his heart and soul into the unit.
yet we let him down so much this way.
why? how?
that's the questions that remains..

ciaos~