life has been as per usual, maybe not exactly ususal.
days has been hard, hours are suffering and minutes of sadness.
how much worst can things be?
changed my skin and song.
i don't feel right, just not right.
i can never lay like this forever, it's a killer.
i've been studying and doing work these few days.
ddnt spend much time in Npcc or council anymore.
yea, it has been quite some time of work.
no more relaxing, but more working.
i realised i just cant manage my time properly for my school commitments.
packing and reading, working and studying.
music and listening, i'm getting used to this life.
but it isn't so enjoyable.
i'm going to throw all my stress and emotions on a new blog.
hush~ i'm telling no one baby.
started back on art as well, haven drawn with freedom for so long.
and if anyone realises and losing the fire for nearly everything,
please don't ask me why. cos' i'm not too sure myself.
boyfriend; what am i to do now?
i hope there's light tonight in the night sky.
my mind is wondering, my heart is on a roller coaster ride.
skies aint bright and stars aint shining tonight.
still, how much longer can i hold on?
somehow, i felt i have given up, but on the outside,
i havent.
insanityisntso.
confusions, it's obfuscating.
still, i know He doesnt wish to see me this way.
O boy, can't you just walk this through with me without all these nonesense.
help me. i